My Brutal Love

Felt good to leave

I tried to not make as much contact with people but Mike spotted me anyway. After our conversation and my little episode I had again. Mike told me, somehow convinced me to break up with whatshername. After school I decided to do it. I had Mike and Tre by my side if anything was gonna happen when I'm in action 

I walked with Mike and Tre over to whatshername's house, had Tre and Mike hide around the corner just to make sure things went good. I took one breath in and out, I knocked on the door a few times and it opened. I started to get nervous 

Oh shit is this one of my panic attacks. Mikey I need you...

"Oh hi Billie" She says

"We need to talk" I say firmly 

"Ok"

How could she act so innocent 

"I-I I'm breaking up with you" I tried not to stutter 

"Your what..."

"You heard me. I'm breaking up with you and that's final"

"Oh yeah well you'll never be good with out me! You're nothing, you're just a rat that your poor mother and dead father made" she yells

"Don't ever bring up my dad!" I scoffed , started to get teary eyed 

"Your fucking worthless you here me!" She yells one more time before slamming the door in my face, and that was it

I took a few steps over into the grass, falling to my knees, covering my face with my hands, whipping away the tears. Mike came running twards me, kneeling down as well putting his arms around me and taking me into his embrace. I latched onto his shirt like a baby. My head over his shoulder

Maybe she's right, maybe I am worthless. Maybe I do need her...

"Mikey..." I say with my teary eyes. It was like he knew what I was going to say

"No no no, you did the right thing. You did the right thing..." Mike hugs me even tighter like this was the last time that I would be seeing him

If I was to be with her, would I have possibly tried to commit. Should I have just done it, ended it when my dad died. Am I not good enough. Maybe I am just a rat