My Brutal Love

I need you here with me

I woke up rubbing the sleep from my eyes. I got up and got dressed, headed out the door and walked to school. 

I got to school just in time before the first bell. My locker is right next to Billie's, usually he would be here by now and we would be talking while walking to our home room class. 

That's odd Billie never misses class. Well he would tell me first if he was gonna be gone. Ollie pushes him to be the best

I spotted Tre talking to some of his friends. And still no sign of Billie. I started to get worried because this isn't like him. I mean I know he just got out of a toxic relationship and all but that shouldn't mean anything

"Tre..." 

"What's up Mike"

"Have you seen Billie?"

"No-"

"Awww Mike is missing his boyfriend!" Tre's friend scoffed

" Shut up! Where not dating. Where just friends..." I yelled

Tre's friend opened his mouth to make another comeback but Tre cut him off.  He turned around to go talk to someone else.

"Look Mike I haven't seen Bill all morning. Maybe he slept in or something. I'm sure he will turn up later" Tre said

The ball rang to start class, I took my seat. All I could think about was Billie.

What if something happened what. What if-

"Micheal are you alright?" Mr. Roberts asked

"Yeah, I'm alright"

"Ok, then I need you to be paying attention" Mr. Roberts replied. I nodded 

"Micheal's worried about his boyfriend not showing up for class" The kid behind me teased 

"Shut up! For the last time we are not dating!" I didn't mean to yell but it came out anyway

"Boys do we have a problem?" Mr. Roberts snapped 

"No sir" we say in unison 

The bell rang to change classes 

" Hey Mike if you are really that worried then.. if Billie doesn't show up for lunch then you should go over and check up on him. But I'm sure he's just late" Tre tried to reassure me that he is ok. 

Deep down I know that something is wrong.

I walk with Tre to lunch and still so sign of Billie.

"Ok I'm gonna head over to his house" I tell Tre

Not sure why not how but I have gained all of these feelings for Billie. Yeah he's my bestfriend but I'm not gay...

"Alright" Tre replies

I leave the school and make my way down to Billies house.

I really hope that he is ok...

I walk up to the porch, I knock on the door. No answer. I knock louder. Still no answer. Ollie wasn't home so I figured that the door would be locked. But I had the spare. Ollie knew that sometimes there was nothing she could do for Billie, so she always has to call me. I unlock the door, the house was quiet. Almost too quiet. I first went up to Billie's room. Nothing.
There is a bathroom right next to Billie's room, I noticed that it was shut. I walked over to try to open it. It was locked.

"Hey... Billie?" I squeaked

No response

Fuck fuck fuck

"Billie, Hey... Open the door" I started to panic

"This isn't a joke. Please open the door."

I couldn't take it anymore. I broke open the door with a few hits from my body. The door finally opened and there Billie was laying on the cold hard ground. A pill bottle was laying on the sink side, almost all of them where gone.

Fuck...

"Billie..." I whined

I quickly grabbed my phone out of my pocket to call 911

"Hello... what is your emergency?" The operator said

"Hi uh... uh my-my friend tried to commit suicide and I-I"

I ended the call, loss of words couldn't find what else to say. Hoping that they would be able to track the call.

I cradled Billie in my arms. Not to long after I made the call I could hear sirens outside of Billie's house.
I tried my best to not cry, but it came out any way. Tears flowing down my cheeks. The paramedics came in and took Billie, they put him on the stretcher and into the ambulance. I hoped in the back as well.

They put a breathing mask on his face and did some other things I wasn't sure of. I was loss for words and still teary eyed, so I stayed quiet

"How long do you think that he was in the bathroom for?" The paramedic asked me

"Oh oh I-I I don't know... he wasn't at school all morning until around lunch, I went to check on him" I say

"Ah ok"

He whispered to the other paramedic so I wouldn't hear him, but I still heard

"I don't know if there is much we can do..."

The paramedic looked at me, and then looked back at Billie. Soon after we arrived at the hospital, they told me that I had to wait in the waiting room. So I waited and waited and waited...