بعض اللحظات مليئة بالظلام.
دقيقة واحدة تضحك بفرح وفي الدقيقة التالية تدخل الواقع تحطم الروح ،
تذكير من الماضي ،
Some moments are filled with darkness.
One minute laughing joyfully and the next minute soul crushing reality steps in,
Reminders of the past,
Flashbacks,
Old feelings resurfacing,
Panic, shame, disgust, fear,
Suffocating me, drowning me, the intense weight dragging me down,
barely keeping myself together,
Into the fog, struggling to breathe,
Stood towering over me, threatening, menacingly ready to swallow me whole,
Is it bad that part of me wants to give in?
To give up?
To lay down my armour, let go of my shield,
To allow the darkness to take over,
To retreat within myself, to let go of being brave...
Sometimes I can't be strong anymore.
Sometimes It's too hard to fight it all. Sometimes I'm too tired to fight a war.
