Amani 🥀 POV
October 2nd
same day...
"no no no no no no" i said and two gun shots went off
jamari had shot my momma then jordan shot jamari
"NOOOOOO" i screamed out loud as i was just in shock
lay started balling her eyes out and ran to my momma
i went to my momma as i saw blood coming for out of his body
"momma, stay with me" i said as i started crying
"i can't live through this twice please" i said wiping her face
"b-baby i-i want y-you to k-keep living y-your life, d-don't let -anyone h-hold you back for what your doing, l-lay i love you and y-you represent as a d-daughter to me, s-sweets i love you , don't you e-ever forget m-me" my momma said
"i love you to but mama i can't do this" i said as i cried out loud and lay came on side on me hugging both of us
"lord please may my momma live, our mother live" lay said
"lord you have brought me a long way, now i just need one thing from you, please protect my momma for this wound" i said
"i didn't do anything to deserve this, please please PLEASE" i said
"ma'am we're going to have to take her" the ambulance women said
"lemme have a moment with her, the fuck outta my face" i said
"mani the only way your momma is gonna live is if they take her" jordan said trying to get me up
"no no no i can't leave her" i said holding onto my momma tight
"come on" jordan said "no NO NO NO PLEASE LET ME GO PLEASEEEEE" i screamed as jordan picked me up and the put my momma on the carrier
he let me go and and went to go kiss my momma on the forehead
"stay safe women, stay alive for me, i love you dukes" i said and jordan came behind me and hugged me
i watched as they took my momma in the ambulance and drove away
"come here" lay said and i went to go hug her "it's going to be fine, ik that you think that it's not but trust me, with me on your side you'll never feel loneliness again,god brought you all this way, so there is something that's gonna be waiting for you, you can't give up okay, you have to stay strong for me and momma, i am thankful to have both of y'all, i'm heartbroken because she accepted me into this family when my momma backstabbed me, so rena brown will forever be my momma stay strong okay baby" lay spoke as as she held me tight as i was tryna drop to the floor
"she left me once and now she's leaving again, i can't handle this shit again, i can't relive the life that i had, i can't lay i can't" i cried my heart out
"it's okay baby it's okay come on" lay said as she walked outside
she put me in the passenger seat and she got into the drivers seat, she cranked the car up and left
"let it out hunny" she said "bro i can't do this shit no more, she was the best momma you could ever ask for, she didn't do anything wrong, why do every thing have to happen to me" i cried out loud
"something is just eating me up inside, i am the one that cost this, i am the one that killed jasmine so he killed my momma, he could've just killed me bro, IM ALWAYS THE ONE THATS DOING WRONG, I HATE MY LIFE SON" i yelled
"mani it's going to be okay but it's not, you killed jasmine because she killed your baby, you shouldn't say that you hate you life because you dont, your just saying that out of anger mani" lay said
"why arent you crying" i said wiping my eyes "because i'm trying to hold it in for you" lay said and we both started laughing then went into crying
"bro she's really gone" lay said crying "yea, and i want to say thank you, thank you for always being there for me when i needed you to be, to hold me close when i didn't want to, you will be my forever best friend, counselor, and my sister, thank you hunny" i said lowly "aww your welcome"lay said
"i'm gonna get my revenge, ima suffocated that hoe, then ouuuu just don't wanna know alayshia you don't wanna know" i said and i started to ball my fists up
"we'll calm down cause we're not gonna do it tonight but we're gonna see if momma is okay" lay said and i nodded as i look out the window
"bro she's really gone" i said as i started to begin crying again
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this was a short chapter but ima do a long one next chapter
one thing that hurt the most is losing the person that took care of you your whole life and provided things for you. that shit hurt bro.
