Friend I lost when I was seven.
To the friend I lost when I was eleven.
To the bestie I lost when I was seventeen.
I still miss you in my end of 9teens.
Thanks for making me realize.
Everything we done was just lies.
I only worked hard to fit in a group of people.
And I forgot myself, thats really cruel.
I realized nothing is permanent.
Everything eventually comes to end.
Our friendship was beautiful as an emerald.
But in conclusion, I'm the one I should love in this world.
To be loved I forgot to love myself first.
I was blinded by friendships thirst.
I'm sorry for trying to fit in.
When I was being treated like dustbin.
I'm tired by holding tight on rope.
Now I decided to lossen and let go the hope.
Those faded memories just left impact on my heart.
So I'm writing them as in a peice of art.
I dont hate you.
It just I never loved myself.
Its not like you valued my presence.
But I blame me for not valuing myself.
But thanks to you dear lost friend.
I'm trying to love and praise myself.
No one gonna do it for me.
I'm the one who should love me.
Let's meet again after I learnt how to love me.
So that we don't have to put too much efforts maybe.
I'll try my best to love myself properly.
So we can be true friends in future probably.
~HGK_writes...
