Heal Me, Annie (Heartfelt Series One)-Completed

*Heal FOUR*

So many days have past, she still prepare my food but I can feel that she's distant. Umuurong ang dila ko sa tuwing magkaharap kami. I'm such a jerk and coward too. I am in my room when I see her outside just looking at the surroundings.

Lumipas ang ilang oras, hindi ko na siya mahagilap. Where did she go? I decided to go out my room and check if where she could be. I go to the kitchen but no image of her. Maybe she's in her room again. I go upstairs and walk towards her door. I was about to open it when I heard the conversation between her and my sister. Nandito na pala ito ng hindi ko namamalayan.

"Annie, I know, you desperately wanted to work again in the hospital because that's your real job. But please, kuya needs you."

"Gwen, as much as I wanted to stay but it's what I studied for. I can see his improvements. I know he will be fine."

"No Annie, What if kuya backs again to his usual self again? Alam ko, minsan unpredictable siya at may mood swings pero nag-aadjust lang naman siya."

"My decision is final Gwen. I'm going back. Don't worry, I will still monitor him. Not regular but maybe every two weeks."

Gusto ko ng gibain ang pintuan niya dahil sa awa lang pala ito kaya siya nanatili. I should have known. She's just after the salary. Umalis na ako sa harap ng pintuan niya at bumalik sa kwarto. There, I let out all my anger by grabbing my own hair.

Bumaba ako ulit at pumunta sa kusina. Naghanap ako nang alak para lunurin ang sarili ko. Luckily, may nakita ako. My sister drinks sometimes when she's worried. I open it and drank directly from it. I hate her for showing pity. I'm not that pitiful!

Naubos ko ang alak ng hindi ko namamalayan. It's slowly affecting me because I feel nausea but I manage to walk outside the kitchen. Nakasalubong ko siya kasama ang kapatid ko.

"Are you drunk kuya?"

"I'm not. I'm fine so I should drink to, to cool down myself."

"Cool down? Is that how you wanted cooling down? Kuya, it's not good for you."

Nakakapagod na puro nalang sermon ang nakukuha ko at awa. I'm not disabled.

"Ask Annie, I'm doing fine my dear sister. She said that right,"directly looking at her.

"Kuya, what do you mean?"

"Obviously she wanted to get rid of me. I'm her patient after all. What does the nurse do if her patient became okay?"

"Hindi ganun yun. Damiel, I will tell you my very reason. I'm not getting rid of okay?"

Pagod na akong ilugar ang sarili ko. I wanted to make my own decision and not focusing on others attention.

"Reason? You don't have to. It's your freedom to choose life you always wanted. I'm not interested."

"Kuya, you don't have to tell her that."

"Gwen, ewan mo muna kami ni Damiel."

Umalis ang kapatid ko at kaming dalawa nalang. Naglakad ako palabas.

"Damiel, where are you going?"

I didn't look back and even utter a word. I just found myself sitting at the bench. She sat beside me.

"I know I'm selfish, but, I have to go back to my real job. This is for the therapy of my Dad. If I didn't go back, the hospital where I work will no longer give me chance. I just leave there with no valid reason. I disappointed my mother."

Napasandig ako sa inuupuan ko. All along, she lied to me. And for some reasons, I'm still the bad guy.

"I'm sorry."

Maybe I should get angry to easily forget about her.

"You lied to me. I don't care if you go away! It's your f**ck***g life! "

"Damiel, please, wag ka magalit."

"Why?! Your selfish!"

Hindi na ito nagsalita at tumayo sa kinauupuan niya. Paglingon ko diretso itong naglakad papasok. It's the best thing I think cause I hate it when she keeps saying sorry.

I stayed outside for an hour. I didn't cry but it hurts me deeply. I thought she'll be my light but it's just my thoughts after all. I decided to go back to my room and drop myself to bed.

Alarm clock on my bed keep ringing that's why I got up but sitting on the edge of my bed. I realize one thing, no one entered my room and I feel empty again.

I directly ran towards her room and found its empty. Kasalanan ko ito bakit siya umalis. Pinigil ko dapat siya. Isang maid ang umakyat.

"Sir, breakfast na kayo."

"Where's Annie,"I shift the conversation.

"Umalis na siya kaninang alas tres ng umaga."

Umalis agad ako sa harapan ng katulong kahit tinatawag ako nito. I lost control last night. Hindi ko dapat yun ginawa. I shouldn't let alcohol consume my mind and heart.

Inaamin ko sa sarili na I am madly in love with her. I'm at peace whenever she's around. Hindi ko makakaya pati ang nag-iisang liwanag sa buhay ko ay mawala.

Nag-iiba ang routine ko sa umaga. I started to lose myself. I usually go outside and buy an alcohol para maglasing. One night, I was caught by Gwen papasok sa bahay. She started confronting me.

"Kuya, what have you done to yourself? Hindi ka umiinom ng gamot at naglalasing ka pa."

Hindi ako sumagot. I just go upstairs but she followed me.

"Kuya, please,"pakiusap nito pero pinagsaraduhan ko siya ng pinto. I immediately open the bottle and drank directly from it. I'm sorry Gwen, I need to shift my mind to ease this longing I feel for Annie.

Inubos ko ang alak at binagsak ang sarili sa kama. Hinayaan ko makita ang presensya nito kahit sa imahinasyon. Bakit ba ako nahihirapan? Hanggang ngayon dala ko pa din ang mapait na karanasan sa buhay. Kasalanan mo ito Damian! Ikaw ang dahilan ng paghihirap ko! Sana mamatay ka nalang!

Sinira niya ang buhay ko at kahit kailan mahirap magbigay ng kapatawaran sa kanya. Kulang ang pagkakakulong niya sa ginawa sa pamilya ko. I hate him so much.

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