Heal Me, Annie (Heartfelt Series One)-Completed

*Heal FIVE*

Everyday I just get drunk to forget what happened. My sister scolded me always but I didn't mind her after all. She cannot get back Annie.

Araw-araw din may nurse at doctor sa bahay para suriin pero hindi ko na iniinom ang gamot. What's the use of it? It's damn useless!

Isang umaga, hindi naging maganda ang gising ko dahil nakabantay sa labas ng pintuan ang doktor at nurse na kasama nito.

"Anong ginagawa niyo dito?!" Hindi pa ba sila titigil para turukan lagi ako at piliting inumin ang gamot.

"We are just doing our job sir."

Para gusto ko siyang sapakin sa sinagot niya. Akmang lalapit ito sa akin kaya sumigaw ako.

"Lumayo kayo sa akin? Ano ba ginagawa niyo sa akin?!"

"Senyorito kumalma kayo!" Isa sa mga katulong ang pumunta dito sa taas.

"Nasaan si Annie?!! Tinuturukan din ninyo siya diba?! Papatayin ko kayo!"

Halos hindi ko na alam ang pinagsasabi ko. Masyado ko ba siyang namimiss. And I hate myself for that. Punong-puno ng pangungulila ang puso ko dahil sa wala ang presensya niya. It's killing me inside.

"Oh My God! Kuya, ano bang ingay ginagawa mo? Nakakaistorbo ka sa pagpapahinga ko."

Naistorbo ko si Gwen pero wala akong pakialam. Gusto ko din magalit dito bakit di siya gumawa ng paraan. Kaya idiniin ko siya sa pader na puno ng galit.

"Nasaan si Annie?! Ibigay mo siya sa akin. Ibigay mo,"pakiusap ko pero sa madiin na boses.

"Ano ba kuya? Just stop pinning me on the wall. I'm your damn sister,"she felt scared of my sudden change of attitude.

"I'm sorry. I need Annie. So please, give her to me."

"Kuya, Annie has a life too. Kailangan niyang umuwi sa kanila kaya next month pa siya babalik."
I know she's lying. Annie will never came back.
"What?! Iiwan na niya ako?"

My sister let out a heavy sigh. Looking at me with worried eyes. Pinatakbo niya ang negosyo ng pamilya na dapat sa akin ang responsibilidad. Umupo siya sa kama ko. I feel guilt and pity for my sister.

"Lumabas muna kayo."

Nagdalawang isip pa ang mga ito. Tiningnan niya ang mga 'to para iparating na ayos lang ito. What do they think of me? I'm a danger to my sister.

"Kuya, uuwi si Annie but next month pa. Don't worry babalik talaga siya. She badly need a job."

"Are you telling me, she's worried because it's her job to take care of me. Thats bullshit! Stop saying that. Annie really cares for me unlike you,"I want take back what I said but it already spit out of my mouth.

"Think whatever you want kuya. Lalabas lang ako saglit. I think I need to freshen up. Haggard na ako."

But I decided to follow her outside her room. I can hear her cries outside. I'm such a bad person for giving her a lot of burdens in life. I hear her phone rings. Maybe she's calling someone. I decided to go back but I want stop when I know who she is talking to.

"Don't quit okay? I know, he has issues. He even cross the boundaries. Alam mo ba, he just keep shouting an hour ago. I'll double it if you want."

My sister is desperate because of me. But I was hurt what my sister said. Annie thinks I'm crazy. Napaupo ako sa labas ng kwarto ng kapatid ko.

"I know that. But my brother is not crazy. He just have traumatic past with my Dad. Annie, he needs emotional help. I don't know what to do."

She seems tired of me. I want to end this life of mine. I'm a complete mess. May narinig na naman akong sinabi ng kapatid ko.
"Please Annie. Heal her. I promise, I take responsibilities. Salitan tayo pwede naman yun di ba?"

Sana pumayag ka Annie. I'll make myself better just to prove I'm not a bargain.

"Really?! I'm so happy. You are really my bestfriend and my angel too."

It's what i have been waiting for. I wanted to shout for happiness. I decided to go back to my room. Pumasok ang kapatid ko ulit sa kwarto at nakangiting humarap ito sa akin.

"Kuya, bakit?"

"Uuwi ba talaga si Annie? Kasi pag umuwi siya i need to look decent right," paniniguro ko dito. I need to confirm of what I heard. Nang matagal itong di sumagot I ask her again.

"Answer me Gwen."

"Uhm, of course kuya, kailangan mo magpaimpress dahil uuwi na siya bukas."

"Your not kidding?! I told you Annie really cares for me."

I can't wait seeing the woman who always there for me. I join dinner with my sister and the looks of helper are totally different. Hindi ako sumasabay sa kapatid for so many years. Kaya ganun na lamang ang reaksyon nila.

Nakahiga na ako ngayon sa kama ko habang iniisip ang mangyayari bukas. Kailangan ko na talaga humingi ng kapatawaran dahil baka tuluyan na itong mawala sa akin.

Siguro kailangan ko na rin iparamdam ang feelings ko para sa kanya. Sana maging bukas siya at hindi maging dahilan ng paglayo niya sa akin. I will make sure that if she loves me back it will be worth it for her. I want her to see me as a better person and I can stand on my own. It will help ease her job and help my sister too.

I close my eyes with a smile and dreaming she's with me right now.

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Hello madam/sirs! Another chapter po. Paalala ko po sa inyo, I cannot update regularly but I'll make sure na di masyadong matagal. Love you my dearest supporters and readers!!!