I used to wish for someone to look at me and go 'Damn'.
I used to wish for someone to look at me and think I'm pretty, for a classmate to notice the way I move and the way I talk, for a stranger to admire the way my hair falls on my face or the way I dress, for my friends to be jealous of my looks...
I used to wish for someone to look at me and think I'm pretty.
But now, now, I wish they would look away.
I wish I wouldn't be afraid to shave my head or put on weight. I wish I could go out in sweats and not care. I wish I could let myself give up on being perfect...
I wish I wasn't afraid to lose that validation because I do NOT want the attention.
I wish they'd stop looking. I wish they'd stop fantasizing. I wish they'd stop falling to their knees. I wish I could go back to the sidelines. I wish I could be pretty for me. I wish beauty would not be the only thing people remember about me and I wish strangers would mind their own goddamn business!
I can't make them look away, but am I really the problem?
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PoetryJust a bunch of poetry and other random thoughts:) ***I'm not a native english speaker and I write those as they come, with emotion. So expect a whole lot of spelling and grammar mistakes.***