I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for making you feel less than. I know the feeling too well. The moment where your heart shatters as you ask yourself: why me? What did I do to deserve this. Im sorry for leaving you behind. I'm sorry for acting like everything was fine. Im sorry for pretending I didn't know the problem. Im sorry for treating you like you didn't matter like you were nothing. Im sorry for not listening when you spoke. Im sorry I didn't stand up for you against all the bullshit they said. Im sorry I didn't notice the empty stomach and lines on your wrist or the tears in your eyes, the hurt in your voice. Im sorry I didn't speak or try to help for the things I did see. Im sorry for being selfish and running away when it got harder. Im sorry you had to go through this because I know how much it hurts. Im sorry because I care, because I'm a fucking coward
I'm sorry for being so mean. I don't know how to tell you without telling you. I keep sending mixed signals because I'm never sure what I want or what I feel but I do know I'm not ready, not stable enough. I keep expecting your over but every time I get close again it's all to restart. I'm sorry I can't find a better way to make you not love me. Im sorry but I'm just not for you.
I'm sorry for being so critical, so judgmental. You take care of me and bring me from one point to another. Im sorry for destroying you both physically and mentally. Im stuck in a never ending battle against my own mind. No winners, just losers and a bunch of tears. Except that's also something I forbid you to do. To myself: I'm sorry.
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PoetryJust a bunch of poetry and other random thoughts:) ***I'm not a native english speaker and I write those as they come, with emotion. So expect a whole lot of spelling and grammar mistakes.***
