*Ni-ki's pov*
A few months have passed since I first met Sunoo and his friends, I've actually been eating lunch with them everyday at school since then and Ive even gone too the mall with them. It's nice having friends, Though Jungwon still kinda scares me sometimes..
My father still isn't home from his work trip yet, it's nice. I've actually been clean from cutting and drinking ever since he left. I think Sunoo might be helping me stay clean, without him knowing I guess. I think he's helping me live, I think he's my reason to live. Thats why I can't tell him about my dad, I can't worry him like that, I can't keep pushing my shit onto him. Ever since I first saw him I knew, I knew that it probably wouldn't be good for us to be friends. Were to different. He's the sun and I'm the moon, He's the beauty and I'm the beast, He's sunshine and I'm rain, he's perfect and I'm, I'm ruined.
Sunoo invited me to some dude named "Sunghoon"s party. Everybody is going, Heeseung, Jake, Jay, Jungwon, Sunoo and basically everybody else at our school. I honestly really hate partys and those kind of things but Sunoo basically begged me to come with him and I can't really say no to him. So here I am getting ready for a party. Im not wearing anything special, even if I would want to I don't really own any nice clothes so hoodie and sweatpants it is. Jay is gonna come and pick me up any second now, I've actually gotten kinda close too him recently, he's kinda cool. He's the only one who knows about my drinking and self harming problem, well him and Sunoo. Sunoo doesn't know that I drink tho, its kinda embarrassing. Jay found out by accident, he saw a notification on my phone that said something like "You've hit your two month free from drinking milestone!" from that stupid app and then he saw my arm when I reached over to grab some book that was kinda high up and my shirt sleeve rolled down by accident. Hes cool about it though, he's a bit worried sometimes and he kinda acts like a dad but its okay.
*nobodys pov*
Ni-ki entered Jays car and they drove to pick up the others. First Jake, who was extremely excited and was already acting drunk even before they had arrived at the party. But he kept complaining about Sunghoon and called him "spoiled" and "a brat". Then they got to Jungwon who gave Jay a peck on the lips before sitting down in the front seat next to Jay which made the other two boys fake gag. Heeseung lived like five minutes away from Sunghoon so he decided to just walk, which made the next place that they would go to be Sunoo's house. Ni-ki was a bit nervous to see him, he was scared that Sunoo would think that what he was wearing was boring or that he would feel embarrassed about going to the party with someone like him. But as soon as he saw Sunoo walking up to the car Ni-ki immediately calmed down. Theres something about the boy that just magically makes him feel relaxed and safe.
*Ni-ki's pov*
It didn't take long until we arrived at the party, Im already feeling anxious about it but I can't back out now. We walked up to the front door and when we opened it we were meet with a young looking guy who introduced himself to us as "Han Jisung". He welcomed us inside and smiled at us, well at Sunoo, they seemed to know each other and Sunoo even smiled back. I didn't like how he looked at him. It made me feel..I don't know, jealous? We continued to walk into the big home, pushing through drunk people and people dancing until we finally arrived in front of some tall and handsome boy, who I guess is Sunghoon. He was nice and told us where everything was and he smiled at all of us, well except Jake for some reason.
*About an hour later (Ni-ki's pov)*
Im walking around the house, getting pushed around in hopes of finding at least one of my friends. Well I had already found Hesseung but he was drunk and flirting with a bunch of random girls. I lost Sunoo about ten minutes ago and I haven't seen the others since we arrived. After maybe twenty minutes of walking around I finally decided to just go outside for a smoke, and so I did. I was standing outside of the house with a cigarette in my mouth when that Jisung guy from earlier came up to me "Leave Sunoo alone" he said. I was caught of guard by what he say but I still manages to respond "what do you mean?" "I see the way you look at him, youre pathetic to believe that he would ever want somebody like you" ouch. "He's to good for you, he's mine so back of" he said before walking back inside. I already knew that Sunoo is to good for me yet it still hurt. I felt like crying but I couldn't get any tears out. I finished the cigarette before walking back inside, going straight towards the table with the drinks. My head wasn't thinking straight and I just kept drinking until my mind went blank. I still didn't know where Sunoo was and at this point I was just walking around trying to keep my eyes open. Everything was blurry and there was just to many people. But then I heard my name being called out, but it wasn't Sunoo. "Ni-ki?!" Jay yelled at me as he pushed himself through the crowd in hopes of reaching me. I felt dizzy and my head hurt really badly.
