Also what is wrong with Ashfur in the final book?!?! (i guess "aLL aLonG" really, but it really had to be revealed sOoOooo paTHeTiCaLLy these latest books) According to his words, he was livid with Thunderclan since "not a single one of them stood by his side after he had his heart shattered by Squirrelflight". Like W. T. F.?!?!?!? How can an entire clan (let's say your home with your kin) aSsisT iN yOuR sTaGeS oF gRieF (or fury) when it was only one cat who rejected you?!?!??! Just because that clan includes the friends and family of Squilf, doesn't mean the clan and Squilf are one entity. Did Ashfur want them to (bully/extort/guilt-trip etc.) Squilf into getting with Ashfur?!?!? That's not true love (aS wE aLL kNoW). . . You know what they say; "that you're not to put all your hope/expectation into one thing (especially when it's another existence (for rOmAnCe) for ex. who has full control over themselves, meaning that yOu cAnT cOnTRoL them in other words)". Nagging them about their decision would only make them more sickened around you (and Ashfur's emotion wasn't even tRuE LoVe). Never has persistency ever made someone more loving, it's always made them more irritable.
Honestly if I were Ashfur I'd want NO CAT to find out about my fAiLeD aTTeMpTs. Instead Ashfur is here announcing not only the fact that he was spurned but also his humiliating adverse reaction TO THE ENTIRETY OF THE LIVING CLANS AND STARCLAN like it's something to be proud of. I find rejection embarrassing (not the same rejection as Ashfur bc I'll never get a crush, but maybe a similar one like someone not wanting to be my FRIEND (like regular lunchbox friend I need to hide behind IN SKOOL after I aPpRoAcH them). A type of disappointment I find embarrassing is like failing an admission test/audition or not placing in a competition (I've rarely tried out in any of those though, but because I have nothing to show, not because I'm aFRaid or anything because for competitions "yOu tRieD" looks good as well, but not for optional auditions).
The last thing I'd want is for words of my dereliction to get out to anyone (not even one person **ESPECIALLY PARENTS AND TEACHERS** as little as possible: graders/judges only). It'd seemed like I "tried and failed" when I should've just never even spared it a glance when I couldn't have gotten in (and I don't mean that as in: trying is not enough (even if better than nothing) if you don't get in; I mean it as if "I DON'T NEED DAMN PITY FROM OTHERS). Because sometimes, tRyinG does look good (rarely to yourself and IRRELEVANT ppl, not someone you build a reputation for like a college), but other times it doesn't and STILL trying can be embarrassing. Like the stereotypical majority (like a counselor or a lowstandard parent or teacher) would sPeW crep along the lines of "aWwWw iTs oK tHeRe'S aLwAyS nExT tiMe aT LeAsT yOu tRieD" and SHUT THE DUCK UP, only I get to decide this to console myself, you go sew your mouth shut. Clearly Ashfur wanted otherwise. . . Clearly Ashfur cared as much about the input of others as his own opinions (at least it didn't exceed that though)
