Waves Of Blue

what do we call this in between?

I look at you like you're the only thing I have
But the next moment I avoid you like plague
Clearly, We are not just friends
Clearly, we are more than friends
But wouldn't it be unfair to call us lovers?
Or would it be fair to call us just friends?
Sometimes we're less than lovers
Sometimes we're more than friends
We're just juggling in the between of this
Trying to find water in the deserted hearts
Trying to find love in the empty eyes
Trying to find an endpoint in circle
Aren't you tired? 
It's like you don't wanna stay
But you also don't wanna leave
I say I don't like you but anyways
My eyes say everything unsaid
Why do I always think of you when I see the brightest star in the sky?
Why do I always think of you when I am
happy or sad?
Why do I always think of you whenever I look
At the sunsets?

Why it's always you?
Why it's always us?
Why me and you?