All Alone

~Chapter 23~

I knew the first time I saw her that I didn't deserve her. She's completely out of my league.

"Dad!! why did you transfer me in that f*cking school?! hindi ako aalis sa school ko!I don't care  about what happened I'm just protecting Trisha!" I shouted at my dad when he handed me a document about my new school. 

"Son this is for your own sake" He said, agad naman akong lumabas nang bahay namin para kunin ang motor, I can't stand his presence. 

For the sake of my own? You made me feel like I was trapped in a dark room with no light. My life has been like that, where I see myself trapped in a dark room from which I cannot escape.

When will I find peace? Talagang nagawan pa talaga nila na i transfer ako sa ibang school. I don't want to go to Valantino University, I don't know how to make friends again I mean I do have some friends from my school but transferring to a new school is not my thing at all. 

I roamed around our neighborhood trying to ease my mind and just focusing on the good side but I can't help not to get mad at my parents. Bakit ba kasi sila nakikialam sa buhay ko? I'm 18 now at isa pa may sarili na akong pag-iisip. I want some privacy. 

I hate talking about what is going on in my mind I mean andyan si Trisha at iba kong kaibigan kaso parang hindi ko kayang mag open sakanila ng mga pinagdadaanan ko, I mean alam ko naman sa sarili ko na kaya ko 'yun I handle mag-isa. 

But other people said, it's better if you let it out to a person who can understands you. How I am going to do that if no one understands me? F*ck this life.

When i felt something vibrating agad ko naman kinuha ang phone ko dahil may tumatawag sa akin. It was Dos, my bestfriend. 

"tol, gag* asan ka? okay ka lang ba?" panimula nya

"oo, okay lang ba't ka napatawag? may problema ba?" I asked 

"wala naman pero nakick out ka raw sabi?? totooo ba 'yun?? at isa pa tol sa Valantino Uni ka na mag-aaral?? gagi tol ang daming mayayaman at matatalino roon ahh!!!" naeexcite na pagkasabi nya 

"andami mong tanong puwede bang tumigil ka?" I said, nakakainis kasi andami nyang tanong kitang hindi naman ako okay sa ngayon. 

"sorry tol, curious lang sige sige ingat ka babush!" banggit nya kaya naman inend kona yung tawag niya 'di naman ako interesadong makipag usap sa ngayon. 

On monday I will be going to my new school, hindi ko alam kung excited ba ako o hindi basta nasa isip ko lang ay ayoko na mag aral. 

why do we need to study? hindi ba puwedeng mayaman nalang agad tayo? bakit pa kasi nag-aaral. 

It's monday already, i woke up and i didn't want to  eat my breakfast that Ate Celeste made. For some reason  I'm not in the mood to eat.

"Nak! Kain ka muna bago ka pumasok sa school" Ate Celeste said while smiling at me.

"Ate Celeste, malalate na po kasi ako at isa pa po ayoko po kumain diet na ako" pag sisinungaling ko sakanya. I feel bad.

"Nako Kevin hindi maganda na 'di ka kumakain kapag umaga kumain ka muna kahit limang subo lang, para mag ka laman naman yung tiyan mo" pilit nyang sinasabi, agad naman akong umiling at lumabas na nang bahay.

"Sir Kevin, sabi po nang Dad nyo i hatid ko raw po kayo sa school" banggit nung driver namin. Bakit ba lahat sila pinagsisilbihan ako ngayong araw? Hindi ko naman kailangan yan kaya ko na ang sarili ko.