chinese lessons; renhyuck

nine

8:56 P.M

Renjun: I'm almost there

9:00 P.M

Renjun: I'm here

9:15 P.M

Renjun: I would really appreciate it if you told me in advance that you wouldn't come.

11:27 P.M

Haechan: Oh my god, I am so sorry.
Renjun: You should be
Renjun: You promised me you would show up. I felt like an idiot.

Haechan: I'm so sorry, so much shit happened earlier.

Haechan: I should've texted you, I'm so sorry.

Renjun: Be honest with me, Haechan.

Renjun: Do you dislike me? Is that why you've been showing up late, or never telling me if something came up so I could waste my time coming to the cafe? Tell me now. 

Haechan: NO! 

Haechan: No I don't dislike you!

Haechan: It's not that I hate you or anything!!

Haechan: It's just...

Haechan: I was dealing with really complicated feelings

Renjun: Oh...

It takes a moment for Donghyuck to realize the meaning of what he had written. Then he sighs, he had probably said too much.

Haechan: It's nothing, don't worry about it.

Renjun: Are you sure?

No, he wasn't. But he wasn't going to say that, obviously. He decides to throw a light-hearted joke to distract Renjun from thinking too deeply about it.

Haechan: Oh? Are you concerned about me? This is character development right here! 

Renjun: Haha

Renjun: Very funny Haechan

Haechan: Of course! I have a great sense of humor, you just haven't seen it yet since this is the longest we have ever spoken

Renjun: I suppose so...

Renjun doesn't say anything else for a minute so Donghyuck thinks that he had finally let go of the topic about his feelings, he doesn't know if he can talk about it without crying again. That is before he gets another text from Renjun.

Renjun: Have you talked to other people about what's bothering you?

He stares at the message for a second too long, his brain completely blank. It took him a good minute or two before he responds,

Haechan: No

Renjun: Why not? You shouldn't let it bottle up inside you, trust me I've been there.

Donghyuck sighs, not knowing how to reply to that. Should he tell him how awful it feels to hold such ugly feelings in your chest, and how you just want to scream until all the pain goes away? Should he tell him what it is that he's feeling, and how much it hurts him?

Haechan: I don't know

Haechan: I don't think I'm ready yet

He holds his breath, waiting for Renjun to reply.

Renjun: Okay well if it helps in any way

Renjun: You don't have to deal with that alone.

Renjun: If you can't talk about it to your friends, you can come to me

Renjun: Even if you stood me up earlier

Haechan: HEY I said I was sorry 😭

Renjun: You better be hmph

Donghyuck smiles to himself softly, smiling because Renjun cares, even after what he had done to him, and he wants to cry again but instead, he laughs.

Haechan: Thank you, Renjun

Renjun: Of course Renjun: Now, you better show up tomorrow, or else I'm taking my kind words right back

Haechan: I will !! Promise.
Renjun: You sure?

Haechan: Yes 100%
Renjun: Permission to smack you if you don't keep it
Haechan: Permission granted
Renjun: Deal! This time we will finally start studying.

Haechan: Right, I forgot we had to do that...

Renjun: This is what happens when you miss two meetings

Haechan: IM SORRY SJDSHKD