I always pushed this possibility aside. But I guess I was very obvious. Perhaps you already know about my thoughts. It would have been natural for you to just ghost me and showing me your disinterest. But then you didn't. I thought about our encounters over the years. Am I... Am I the dense one? Was my selfesteem so damaged, that I never even considered the thought, that you may not hate me? Even... like me? Or am I now reaching the point of being dellusional. I bought some new clothes today. To decorate myself with feathers like a peacock. You saw a glimpse of me at my lowest, but I don't want you to be sad. So I am going to show you a form of my best. Looking forward to when we are meeting up with the others. I will keep my distance. For I fear, that I can't act nothing but weird beside you. For I am way too happy and flustered to act clearly.
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Just venting my feelings
PoetryYeah I have a crush right now. My life got really complicated over the years. My mental health was down for some time. I am working on myself really hard. But now I need something to get everything out of my system so yeah, pls don't cringe
