Drug of choice - ashtray

IX

Me ash and fez where getting the pretzel stand ready for the carnival. Fez agreed I could stay in the stand to avoid rue, even tho it made more sense for me to go around and mingle since I knew most of the people there, and him and ash didn't.
"Shit" fez said, proud of how the night was going before it even started.
He went outside and opened up the latch and officially open the pretzel stand. Me and ash smiled at each other.
"Gonna be a good night tonight man,let's go get this money" fez said fist bumping us both and walking away.
"Ashtray" I said seriously
"What" he answered
"Your a drug dealer who won't touch drugs"I said
"I will I just don't need them" ash said
"Ok we're at a fucking carnival, at least smoke some weed with me"I pleaded
"No, and your not either"he said
"Excuse me dad but I am very stressed out right now" I said
"Ash, look at fez, look around ,everyone is high, look how happy they are, look how miserable we are, today is gonna go painfully slow or it could be really fun, you'll be fine if you smoke a tiny bit of weed once at a fucking carnival!" I begged
"Fine weed and that's it"he said
"Yes, I love you" I jumped up and kissed his cheek, he looked startled 
He pulled out fez's weed. He used fez's grinder and papers, he was gonna be so pissed.
I held my hand out but ashtray shook his head.
"I didn't even know you could roll"I said
"I'm a fucking drug dealer" he said incredulous
I watched him grind up the weed, fez had a rolling machine but he didn't use it, he put tobacco and weed on the paper then rolled it by hand he brought it up to his mouth and licked the paper while holding eye contact with me before lighting it, taking a long drag, then handing it to me. I stared at him stupidly until he clicked his fingers in my face.
"What's up with you" he asked
I wanted to say that was hot, but it was too early in the day for awkwardness so instead I said.
"I just didn't expect that" I said
"Your so weird" he said ,I grabbed the joint of him before taking 3 long drags and handing it back to him. Still holding eye contact he took 4 long drags, he looked menacing. What is he doing.
"Calm down, at least build up a tolerance first" I said
There was something about ash tonight. Like he wanted to beat me at my own game. Constantly challenging me.I wasn't going to let him win.
So I took the joint and took 5 long drags.
At this point the joint had nearly fully burnt down and he knew he couldn't get six out of it. Ash looked at the joint then back up at me. He came right up to me, took the joint, finished it, then came right up to my ear.
"Let's do molly" he whispered
"What's gotten into you!"I asked
"We're at a carnival" he replied
He reached down and grabbed two little baggies. Putting one in his own mouth he grabbed my chin and opened my mouth. Still holding eye contact he put the pill into my mouth. We both swallowed together.
I was so shocked to this new side of ashtray. It was like he had forgot his mature tough guy act and was now acting like some rebellious teen, Like he was now the teenage boy he had potential to become minus all the trauma.
"Shit we got customers" I giggled
No actually shit, it was maddy and Cassie. I ducked down
"Welcome to pretzel mania can I take your order!" Ash ran up to them
Maddy handed him a ticket.
"How many pretzels you want?" He asked
"We don't eat carbs,abbi?" Maddy asked noticing me
"Where have you been your moms worried sick"she said
"I know I know you can't tell anyone you seen me here ok"I panicked
"Yea but like. Are you safe?" She asked unsure
"Yea yea I am don't worry"i reassured her
"Okay if your sure" she said
"Two please" Cassie said
"That'll be forty!" Ash said
They both pulled a twenty out their bra
Ash went and got two mollys and wrapped them up with the pretzel.he walked back and handed them to Cassie and maddy
"Thank youuu!" They both said
Me and ash both burst into laughter
"I don't wanna be stuck in this pretzel stand all day" I said
"We can make it fun, Truth or dare" ash said
"Truth" I said, I didn't trust him. I was scared at the amount of eye contact we've made in the last hour. He wasn't breaking eye contact right now. Which I know means he's looking for a challenge.
"Do you find me attractive"he asked
"Woah, ashtray that's a lot" I said
"It's yes or no"he said
"Conventionally I mean yea" "truth or dare" I said
"Truth"
"Do you find me attractive" I asked, playing it safe
"Yes I do" he said
"Truth or dare"
"Dare"I said
" I dare you to stop asking why I'm being weird and just enjoy it because I'm never smoking with you again" he said, letting me off extremely easy.
That's why I felt bad for saying
"Do you wanna fuck me" I knew I could take advantage of him being high to find out exactly what jules was talking about.
"Yea" he said softly
WHAT ash being high made me realise just how much he hid his feelings sober. Because I never would of guessed in a million years he would admit or even think that in the first place . EVER.
"Oh-"
He started laughing. What he was laughing about I didn't know.
"I'm never getting high with you again" I said
"Did I win" he asked
Shit, he said it all for the game. The unspoken game he just won.
"I think you did"

AHHHHH OKK  I'm getting into the groove of it now. SEE I can create tension with out smutt .Round of applause for me. YAY