Drug of choice - ashtray

XXII

"What! Abbi..."lexi said sceptically
"Hey... your going for Cassie anyway, might as well take down Nate with her" I shrugged
"But this is-"she started
"Exactly what your play needs!"
"Lexi.... It's a good idea"
She tilted her head at me before saying.
"He scares me" she said
"Fezco will kill him if he hurts you" I said plainly
"Do you think?" She said smiling
"Definitely"I said grinning back
"So...am I in this play?" I asked
"Yea, but you can't hate me..." she said
"Why would I hate you?" I asked
"You wouldn't! Forget I mentioned it" she said
"Ok..."I said eying her
I explained for hours in explicit detail about my plans and she loved them.
"Is that like homophobic?" She asked
"What?! No! it's mocking how straight men are homophobic but then act like that with their boys. It's calling out homophobia" I said
"It makes sense but, nates gonna be mad..." she said unsure
"Lexi your whole play is gonna make people mad. Stop censoring yourself, this is your moment. Stop worrying about other peoples feelings" I said
"If only you knew..." she muttered
"Huh?" I asked
"Nothing! Where's fez?" She asked
"In his room" I said
"Can I go and see him"she asked
"Knock yourself out" I said
I sat in silence thinking about mine and Lexis interaction. She seemed off, I put it down to nerves about the play.
I decided that today was a day of reconciliation so I walked into mine and ash's room.
"Hey" I said sitting next to him
He looked up from his phone for a split second then looked back down at it.
"Ashtray" I said
"Hm"he said not looking up this time
"Sorry I made you worry but I don't understand why your mad at me" I said
"Who said I'm mad at you"he said, angrily
I scoffed
"You don't need to say it I can see it" I said
"Well,I'm not angry"he said
"How am I meant to apologise when I don't know what to be sorry for!" I said
"Yo it's not that fucking hard!" He said
"It is! It's impossible. You might as well tell me"I said
"You careless with your life but if you die...it's me and fez who have to live with it.I love you,fez loves you , a lot of people fucking love you and your putting yourself in danger for the stupidest of things, you need to fucking stop it. I mean, taking guns out, disappearing for a full night,getting in fights with fully grown men, killing mouse. You are going to die!" He said
"After the play ash... I'm telling you things will change. Everything will be better, I promise"I said
"What! What the fuck does that mean?!" He said
"What the fuck are you doing, you haven't even left the house!"
"Nothing!"I said defensively
"This is the shit I'm talking about, your lying to me" he said
"Ashtray... I'm not. It's a feeling. That's it" I said
"I swear to fucking god you better not be lying"he said
"I'm not..." I said
We sat in silence for a while.
"I'm not the fucking villain" he said
"I know ashtray" I said fed up but to tired to argue. He grabbed my chin and tilted my head up to kiss me.
"Good"

Short but I need to go to sleep plus we have to wait till next week for the new episode sooo. I'm gonna do that one scene with Faye and Custer then extend it then that's it till next episode sorry! Only because I'm super busy and out of ideas. Anyway I felt like I owed you all the update