No one cares about my rape
No one cares how I almost died
The truth is something she's ashamed of
Something that she hides
No one cares how her hands went on my subtle child skin
No one cares where she touched
And the damage she did with within
No one cares about how she laid with me
While I suffered feeling her stroke my misery
My body trembled and my eyes were scared
I tried to sleep but she was always there
Stroking my body and keeping me awake
Fuck it all, I'll just wake up and take on another day
The way she treats me to my face is a fucking joke
As she puts on a false face,
so no one will see through the fucking smoke
A small child trying to die,
And she watched it all and laughed,
Than at night she'd watch me as I took a fucking bath.
Why must I be the one to live in misery,
Why must I be the adult here after all she did to me,
Why must I sacrifice my mental health for her,
Why do you insist I do because she did one nice thing for me.
Open your fucking eyes,
The death of my childhood,
My small and weak pathetic cries,
My body shaking as she talks to me,
The rage is forever,
It's stalking me.
Why must I suffer while you enjoy your pathetic lie,
Pretend like it never happened ,
Go on,
Enjoy my sacrifice
No one believes the child who was desperate and alone,
They all believed the parent who they thought think they fucking know,
They say I was difficult and I guess they think it's true,
But maybe I was difficult because of fucking you.
It's easier to believe the lies when the truth just hurts to much.
Don't you think I wish to forget about her little fun?
Now I'm settling into a life that's never done
The battle might've ended now but the war has just begun
All I do is face her to keep the peace and run,
Is this really all my life has become?
Is this really mean the battle's never won?
Watch me.
Suffer.
Like no other.
Starving.
Self harming.
Feeling..
dead.
