soft spot - TOMMY SHELBY - CILLIAN MURPHY

bentley

i had so much to think about but my mind was to lazy to even attend to those thoughts, without thinking i walked back to the massive doors once again, but this time with cillian trailing behind me, he approached my dad with small laughter at the state of such a professional man being so drunk
" gray (short for grayson) i'm gonna give devyn a lift home if u don't mind, just saving her the effort of getting a taxi"
my dad slung a arm around cillian and hugged him drunkly
" thanks mate it was so good seeing you tonight we reall do need to catchhh up soon, give me a bell later yeahhh, and u devyn give ur mum a big kiss for mee" he slurred and dragged on every word
"dad please stop embarrassing yourself"
"heyyy dev don't be so rude call me when u get home and thanks again cillian mate"
"it's my pleasure, i'll text u later on alright"
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cillian and i walked out to the huge parking lot and i spot a shiny black bentley continental GT,
he pressed the unlock button on his car keys and the cars light flash brightly
" i like your car"
"thank you"
" can i take it for a spin" i said joking but not really joking because i  would honestly love to
" no fucking way"
" okay"
cillian goes around and opens the car door for you
" aw at least you've done one thing nice for me today"
" giving u the hour and half lift home is nice to" he said sheepishly
"i said u didn't have to"
we both awkwardly sat in silence for the first 10 minutes of the journey, but i realized he was taking all the back roads clearly avoiding london traffic.
" so what are your plans for the few weeks not at college" cillian broke the silence
" i don't really have any, you?"
"working mainly" he said dryly
" does ur wife not find it annoying that u work so much"
cillian cleared his throat uncomfortably
" uh n- no we got a divorce recently" he said genuinely
oh shit, i mean i did realize the small indent on his ring finger from where a ring must of been sitting.
"oh i'm sorry i had no idea, do u mind me asking why"
"u sure do ask a lot of questions dev don't u" he said sarcastically
for some reason it gave me butterflies when he used the nick name 'dev'
"sorry"
" don't say sorry i was joking, we divorced because she didn't like the fact i was always working, we just weren't compatible, it wasn't working anymore"
"oh do u plan on ever getting married again"
" well i'm old now so no"
" ur not old"
" 38 is quite old devyn"
" young for a investment broker" i said teasingly
" bank investor" he said correcting you and sitting up straight focusing on the road
" do you plan on getting married" he said casually
" yes one day, when i find the 'one' i thought i would marry my ex boyfriend to be honest but it didn't work out either"
" and why's that"
"we wasn't compatible" i said softly but that wasn't the real reason, i just didn't want to overshare
"fair enough"
" so u said u live near to us, where abouts do u live"
" a few miles away from you"
he never gives full answers, is he trying to be secretive or is this just him
" and do u live alone.."
"just me yeah"
" cool" i said bluntly while tapping my feet on the floor
i glanced over at cillian to see him focusing on the road
eyebrows scrunched, a strand of  black hair over his deep blue eyes, his plump lips casually resting a jar open, and his strong jawline looking as if it could cut through your soft skin, the top button of his shirt was undone and his tie had disappeared, and i couldn't lie to myself but he looked good.
" what time is your mum expecting you home"
why did he always speak so uninterested and bluntly?
" she doesn't mind, i am a adult remember"
" 18 is far from a adult"
" still a legal adult"
"if you say so"
the hour long car journey went by quite fast and throughout the rest of it we exchanged some small talk and he finally pulled up to the gates of my house
" this one isn't it?"
" yep this is the one, oh and thank you so much for dropping me back you really didn't have to"
" don't worry about it, u was the one way anyway"
i smiled gently and opened the car door and stepped out and waved.
cillian didn't bother to wave back he just tilted his head upwards in an attempt to say goodbye, and started his engine and drove of. why is he so fraustrating.