soft spot - TOMMY SHELBY - CILLIAN MURPHY

Nice try

After a few more slow dances with cillian
My feet felt as if they were broken after wearing heels for all these hours, cillian could clearly tell that I was exhausted, he hinted at us going home, i agreed and we made our way out to the Bentley

"I'm so tired, I feel like I'll pass out any minute and don't even get me started on my feet, they fucking kill"

"Other than that, did you have a good night, it's nice to see you made a little friend" cillian said teasingly

"I even got her number, are u proud of me? My antisocial self made a new bestie"

"I'm very proud"

"Cillian can i ask you something?"

"Anything"

"My dad said your still in love with your ex wife, is that true?"

"No,if u want me to be completely honest with you, I'm the one who ended things, I just wasn't madly in love with her and I feel like to be married you need to feel that way"

"So why did u tell me she ended it before"

"Because dev i sound like a prick when I tell
people I divorced a women for absolutely no given reason other than the fact I wasn't truly in love with her"

"Well I think that's a valid reason"

"I know you do, but not everyone thinks like you do"

" I need to sleep"

" go to sleep I'll wake you up when we're home"

" I cant sleep with your driving"

"What's that supposed to mean"

"You drive like your fucking Lewis Hamilton or something, why so fast"

"It gets you there quicker"

"It's also highly dangerous"

"I've been driving for over 20 years so we won't get killed"

" you've been driving longer than I've been alive"
This gave me the creeps

"Precisely"

I feel like any second Im gonna fall asleep
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"Devyn"
I felt someone shaking my body
"Devyn"
I knew it was Cillian but I couldn't be botherd to walk my self out of the car so I'm just going to pretend to be asleep
"Dev, we're home"
"Oh for fuck sake"
I heard Cillian mumble under his breathe
He then Unclipped my seatbelt and carefully lifted me so that my legs were around his waist, fuck I'm wearing a dress, oh well, I need to pretend to be dead asleep, I felt cillians breathe against my neck and his heart beating against mine as he carried me all the way up the stairs, until we got to my room, he layed me down in the bed, and put my covers on top of me, and just as he went to walk out the room i mumbled something
"Cillian"

"Mmmhm"

"tuck me in better"

" oh so you were awake"

"Oh i mean, how did I get here???"

"Your telling me an 18 year old 'adult" just faked being asleep so that they could get carried inside
because they were to lazy to walk"

"Ummm no..maybe.. okay yes"

"Not so much of an adult now are u"
He said while sitting on the end of my bed

"I was really tired" i said grumbling

"Goodnight devyn" he said as he turned my light of to walk out my room

I really didn't want him to go, I wanted him to stay and sleep with me and cuddle me, but I couldn't do that? He was my dads best friend.
So I resisted the urge and closed my eyes and drifted of to sleep.

The next morning

I got out of bed at 11:00am which was not that late for me, but I felt a bit upset because this means that Cillian would of already left for work, it's not like I cared, I just was sick of being alone all the time.
Seeing as Cillian isn't home I'm going to just wear my bra and underwear downstairs to quickly get a drink, what's the point in getting dressed when nobody even home.
I quickly rushed downstairs in need for my drink,
I got to the kitchen and I poured myself some orange juice from the fridge.
Just as I was eagerly gulping all this fucking juice down
I turn around to see cillian just coming into the door
Fuck
Fuck
What do i do
I cant fucking hide
He looked up at me and his eyes went wide
"Shit dev I'm sorry" he said while covering his eyes and walking straight out the room
"I i- look I didn't know u was home" I shouted out
i quickly went upstairs and threw a hoodie and some joggers on and then went downstairs.
i walked into the living room and cillian was sitting on the sofa on his phone, what does he even do on his phone, read emails?
"Morning" i said looking down on him
Walking directly in front of him so he would come of his phone,
Cillian looked up at me with his ocean blue eyes and then faked being asleep
I knew why he did this, he's taking the piss of me, i started shaking him arm
"I'm going upstairs"
Cillian stopped pretending to be asleep and then grabbed my wrist gently pulling me back
"No" he groaned
"Have u got any plans today" cillian said
"Yes, sleeping, and course work"
"I guess u can't come with me to run errands then"
"What errands"
"It doesn't matter because your busy"
"I'm not anymore, I cancelled my plans"
"Go get ready"
"Okay boss"
Cillian rolled his eyes playfully at this.

I made my way upstairs and just kept my sweat pants on but I wore a super short tight long sleeve cropped top instead, I put some makeup on and brushed my already straight hair, and I even put on some perfume.

I rushed downstairs and found cillian in the same spot , he looked so good I felt like just going over to him and sitting on his lap and cuddling him, but I couldn't.
So instead I just went and stood in-front of him waiting for him to look up at me so we could go.
*cough cough* I tried hinting I was there
He clearly knew I was but was just ignoring me on his phone,
"Cillian"
He was still starring down at his phone, uninterested, he was definitely doing this on purpose
"Stop being so annoying" i said while snatching his phome from his hand
He then quickly looked up at me and tried to take it back
"Devyn stop" he said annoyed
I started running from him and he started chasing me to try and get his phone back
We was both laughing and then i got onto the sofa and stood on it, still holding his phone up in the air, he got on the sofa aswell, and grabbed my arm in an attempt to grab the phone and then he slipped and fell right on top of me, fuck he was on top of me, on the sofa
We was both still laughing and he was still trying to get it out of my hand, his strong body on top of mine,his heavy breathes on my neck, him fraustratedly moving around trying to get the phone, I wanted him, he finally grabbed the phone back while his hand was rested on my throat, he then tightened his grip on my throat, (not in a i wanna kill you way) and said
"Nice try devyn"
He then got up of me, and trust me I felt like pulling him back onto me, but I couldn't
I was still laying on the sofa and he was looking down at me, we were both out of breathe
"You ready to go?" He said
I faked being asleep again, to hint him to carry me
"That's not gonna work this time, now come on we need to go"
He grabbed my hands and pulled me up playfully