I was staring into the void. I wasn't feeling my body, not the cuts on my arms but i did feel the raw pain growing inside of my chest. The last few days i had been crying myself to sleep along with cutting my arms of course, i was starting to get that shallow feeling inside of my chest and it was only growing
I snapped out of trance after a few seconds, i was out of the shower and staring at myself in the mirror. I dropped the towel, my eyes firstly landed on the scars but slowly they moved to my showing ribs, actually all my bones were freaking showing... i looked disgusting. My face was pale and my green eyes are lifeless, i hate how i look, it makes me sick just looking at myself in the mirror, i wanted to smash that mirror so i wouldn't have to look at myself in the mirror every time i go to the bathroom, actually i would like to smash every mirror in the house or even better the whole world
I picked the towel and wrapped it tightly around my body. I got to work and started taking out all the makeup i could find, i poured a good amount in my left arm and started diffuse it, i applied different shades to try to make them not so noticeable
After about ten minutes and a lot of foundation it looked kinda of good? Of course they didn't just disappeared like my father did every weekend, but at least you could't see them from afar
I got dressed in a hurry because i was already late to go dress shopping to the wedding i was forced to attend. I slipped into a tight long sleeve crop top and some high waisted beige pants
First time in weeks i'm actually dress in real clothes
Rose would be coming with me, because i had no other friends and it would be pathetic to go alone
Downstairs Greyson and Ace were waiting for me, their eyes lightened up when they saw me walk down through the stairs
"You look beautiful" Ace told me, i didn't smile and neither say thank you
"Like always" Greyson added going to perk my lips
I fought the urge to wince away
"I-i need to leave or we i'll be late for the appointment" i mumbled looking down
"Puppy" Ace grabbed my chin to look at him "you dare try to scape and i will make sure that brother of your won't walk again" anger was clear in his words "do you understand Camille?"
"Yes, i understand" i replied though clenches teeth's
"Be good girl baby" Greyson touched my cheek softly
I slipped away finally getting away from them, in the car was already Rose who smiled softly at me "how did you sleep?" She asked
"Terrible" i replied "so so bad"
The car started, the very expensive car that could feed half of the block i used to live in
My eyes went straight to the window, it was the first time in weeks i was out of the mansion and eager to look into freedom. Slowly i started connecting the dots, if Ace and Greyson were heads of the New York mafia of course we had to be in New York or close by, maybe some very expensive place that i'm so poor i had never even heard before
"It's a private state half an hour away from the big city" Rose informed me
My head snapped to Rose "oh" that made a lot of sense
"Have you been thinking about what type of dress you want?" She asked
"No, i don't care" i replied honestly
"This could take long then" she smiled "but don't worry we have time"
As Rose had said half an hour later we entered the big city and things started to get slowly more familiar, it was still the upper east side so it's not like i knew the streets and all that stuff because the last time i was here i was ten and my father dropped me off trying to get rid of me, i'm like a pest so eventually i made my way home
We were passing by expensive designers stores with beautiful dresses in display
The SUV stopped in front of a white building with beautiful white wedding dresses, Rose helped me out and we walked inside. My eyes stayed fixated in the beautiful store and the mannequins with long stunning dresses. A woman quickly approached us with a pleasant smile on her face "you must be the future Mrs Knox, I'm Rachel please come to me if you need any help"
My smile disappeared
"Yes" Rose replied for me seeing i wasn't replying "she's the bride"
"Please see around i already have some dresses you might like but you can totally add another ones" she told me still smiling
"Thank you" i told her and turned around to see dresses. I've dreamed about this moment since i was a little girl and we passed by a wedding venue in central park, seeing the smile on the brides face and the love in her eyes immediately made me want what they had. Your wedding is suppose to be one of the happiest moment of your life, and instead of going through dresses eager to find the perfect dress i stud there staring at the dress i would be force to wear
It's not like i could run of something, the four guards in the door would clearly be a problem and this guy who was literally followed me inside would be also a problem
"Miss come see this" Rose called me, she was holding a mermaid white dress with a beautiful embroidery of flowers
It was beautiful but again it didn't seem right
"It's beautiful" i told her
"Why don't you start trying some dresses" she suggested seeing me standing there like an idiot
"That sound like a good idea" i said
"Oh of course! Follow me" Rachel said
I followed her to a huge fitting room that already had like ten dresses hanging
She went to the first hanger "this is a beautiful satin V-neck dress from Sarah Burton, it's simple but elegant with a tight top and then a loose end"she explained as i touched the silky fabric that almost slipped through my fingers "easy for dancing and incredibly confortable, it has a good support in the chest part"
"It's beautiful" i whispered under my breath, it's every little girls dream dress
"Lets try it on" Rachel smiled
I undress myself until i was just on my underwear, Rachel helped me slipped in the dress and zip it tightly around my chest. I looked at myself in the mirror twirling around still in disbelieve, i had to admit the dress fit me perfectly
I walked out to Rose who's eyes widened "oh you look beautiful" she told me standing up from the couch she was sitting "it's beautiful"
"I know" i said almost for a second forgetting why i was actually in this wedding dress, key word almost
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We went through at least twelve dresses, each one was beautiful in it's on way but i haven't found the right one. They were too shinny or way too heavy
"This is one is a beautiful Vera wang ball gown shape. It follows the natural waist with a beautiful big skirt and off shoulder, it's not heavy and easy to remove" she winked the last part at me
I tried not to gag
Once i had on the beautiful dress on me i knew this one was the one. The layer tulle was beautiful and it matched perfectly with the embroidery of creeper plant along with detail flowers. Rachel went ahead and slipped on a long catedral vail that was long enough to touch the floor
"Oh god!" I turned around to see Rose "it's stunning"
"I know" i told her touching the beautiful gown
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RomanceCamille life had been hell for the past eighteen years. Her mother was dead, her father beat her, her brother was a junkie. She knew nothing more than a constant struggle, so dancing became her only peace and heaven she could have in her life, it be...
