Only theirs

CHAPTER 44

Beep beep beep beep

My head was pounding and my eyes were refusing to open, my limbs feel weak and i couldn't move them. I could already tell i was in hospital and not dead, the antiseptic smell and the rough gown on my skin gave it quickly away. I could also feel Ace hand grabbing mine in a tight grip, and even though Greyson was not touching me i could feel his presence in the room

I stayed in that state for a while, where i would be totally conscious but unable to move anything

Finally I started to regain myself. My eyes slowly began to open, the white light hit my eyes making me frown in discomfort, a groan left my lips

Ace squeezed my hand gently "she's waking up"

My eyes totally opened and i saw the brothers staring intently at me. I swallowed and licked my dry lips, muscles were aching

"Take it slow" Ace murmured

I nodded slowly "i fainted?"

"You did, love" Ace replied to my question "how are you feeling now? Does something hurt?"

Shaking my head i replied "no, i'm okay i guess"

He leaned over to caress the side of my face, there was something off with his expression

I looked over at Greyson who was staring at the ground

"What's wrong?" I asked sitting up "Do I have like a tumour or something like that?"

"You're okay, love" he kissed me deeply and didn't let go for a while, his lips were soft against mine, oddly he wasn't kissing me hungrily or roughly, instead he was careful "you trust me don't you?" He asked, taking me into his arms

I swallowed hard

My eyes drifted to Greyson who was now looking at me "whats happening, Greyson?"

He walked over and sat in the bed with us, his hand gripped my leg and squeezed me gently. My eyes followed his every movement

"They did some tests" Ace continued gently

"Tests?" I asked

Greyson continued "you're 9 weeks pregnant"

"No" i whispered "please no"

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I was curled up in the hospital bed as silent tears rolled down my cheeks. I was nine weeks pregnant with their child, it even matter who was the father, it was theirs. The last thing i ever wanted was to get pregnant, it sounds ridiculous when we had sex without protection more times that what i can count. I never wanted to be a mother, i had promised to never have children after what had happened to me. I didn't know what i wanted to do, maybe i wanted to have an abortion

Ace had my hand on his, he didn't say a single word while i cried

Nine weeks i had been pregnant and had no idea

I cleared my throat and wiped some of my tears even though they were quickly replaced by new ones "what if i want to have an abortion?" I asked lowly

I felt ace body tense under my hand "you want to get rid of it?"

It sounded way more harsh when he said it like that

"If you don't want it, we want it" Greyson said, his voice so hard it almost hurt "give birth to the baby and you can leave and have nothing to do with the baby or us. We cant let you have an abortion, not if we can raise it"

I felt disgusted "and leave my child?!" I raised my voice, sitting up and staring at Greyson in disbelief "you think i could ever do that? Is not that simple! I wont give birth to my baby and give it away! I'm not a fucking monster!" More tears sprung out of my eyes "don't even say it again!"

How could he even think i would do that?

"Don't do this, Camille" Ace whispered "it's our child as well"

I leaned back again silently sobbing

"I don't want to be a mother" i whispered under my breath "i'm eighteen, i'm not ready"

Greyson opened his mouth but i snapped before he could say another stupid thing "don't you dare say i could just leave my child as he or she had never happened, because i would never do that. N-E-V-E-R"

"We can do this together" Ace tried

"She's leaving, once the year is over she already told me she would leave" Greyson said coldly "her mind is already made up, she doesn't
want to stay with us"

I looked over to see the pain flashed in Ace eyes, it quickly turned into anger

"Well she's clearly not leaving with our child" Ace snapped

"Of course she's not" Greyson scoffed

My throat went dry, my head was pulsating "you won't let me leave with my baby?" I asked and their expression said it all "b-but you promised"

"You're not taking our baby away" he snapped "as i said, you can leave but the baby is staying with us"

"That's not even-."

I was interrupted by a knock on the door

"Come in" i said trying to sound as normal as i could even though i was breaking inside

A nurse walked in with a warm smile on her face "you're awake, thats good" she said walking over and looking at my vitals, she took my temperature in the most awkward silence i had ever been in "no fever which is also good" i nodded as i tried to force the tears to stay on my eyes only "how are you feeling? Some bothers you?"

"Everything is fine, thank you" my smile flattered

She smiled "the doctor will be coming in a few minutes to talk about your pregnancy"

"Alright" i tried to smile at her

She left the hospital room and we fell back into silence. I did not know what i wanted to do, apparently my choices were limited because of Ace and Greyson. I wasn't even sure if i wanted an abortion in the first place, but knowing i didn't have the choice made it hurt even more. They had a say in the baby, it was half theirs after all but i also did have a say and if i would be force to be a mother i would the best i could be because i would not repeat my father's mistakes

I'm not hurting my child like i was hurt

"So i'm keeping it" i broke the silence with the firmest voice i could manage

They didn't reply for a few minutes

"You are" Ace murmured back

More tears began to roll down my cheeks, i couldn't stop them and neither i had the energy to do

"Can you leave?" I asked laying my head back down "i need to be alone for a while"

"I don't think that's a good idea" Greyson muttered

I froze, slowly understanding why "i wouldn't do anything to hurt me or the baby, but i appreciate the trust"

They shared a look before leaving the room

I curled myself again on the bed and wrapped my arms around myself. I felt the weight of everything fall on my body, even when i thought i had no tears left more began to pour down my eyes. I was sad, i know i wont be able to be the mother a child needs, not with the scars on my arms or the thoughts that invade my head almost everyday. I was the daughter of an alcoholic and the sister of a junkie, i killed my father with my own hand and stared at his dead body without a single drop of remorse, i didn't even feel remorse now because he deserved everything i did to him

The woman i just described would never be a good mother

I was too fucked up, maybe i should leave the baby with them