DYING ON THE INSIDE

It's the morning and Camilo wakes up. He sees Mirabel and smiles. He kisses her head and gets up and get dressed before he wakes up Mirabel. He goes over and taps Mirabels shoulder slightly. She tosses and turns before she sets up.

"Baby it's time for you to get ready." Camilo says. "No." Mirabel mumbles. "I already layed your clothes out you just need to get dressed." Camilo tells her.

Mirabel groans and gets up and goes to her room. She changes into the clothes he picked out for her. She looks in the mirror in her bedroom then she looks at the pills. She picks them up and thoughts start appearing

Mirabels thoughts
-There's no point eating or eetting out of bed your not going to do anything useful.
- Your just a burden ro everyone around me
- These pills don't help you
- no one loves you
- your not special to anyone
- your going to die really soon
- kill yourself
- you don't deserve to be alive
- your dying slowly on the inside
- throw them away (repeats)

Mirabel looks at them and throws them away. She grabs her scissors out of the cabinet that is covered in dry blood. She gets them out of the case and goes to the sharp side. She takes them and cuts deep in her arm crying. After a while she puts them back and washes the newly blood off her arm and puts her sleeve back down. She goes to her mini fridge and gets a jar of peanut butter and takes a spoon and sits on the floor taking really small bites of it looking at the fridge. When she eats peanut butter it helps her vision a little when she feels dizzy.

"I hate this." Mirabel says to herself.

She puts the peanut butter away and opens her door and goes outside where everyone is. She sees if anyone is looking and sneaks out to go for a walk. She stops by a bridge putting her hand on it while walking. She stops and looks down.

Dying On The Inside
You should take this as a compliment
If I were you, I would be more confident
You're lucky that you're pretty
Why are you obsessed with your appearance?
I don't wanna hear it, you're fine (Mirabel drags her hand)

It's been my best-kept secret for a while now
No one ever sees it, but it's all around (Mirabel walks slowly)
It's the dinner conversation no one talks about
Don't know how much longer I can keep this down (Mirabel is on the road)

There's no cars cause she's just imagining it

Beauty is a knife
I've been holding by the blade
Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything
It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive
They're all like (Mirabel does a couple of turns)
Did you change your hair?
Did you lose a little weight? (Mirabel holds her stomach)
You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great
I hate that I always look my best
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside

I wish I could break the mirror
It makes me feel like I should fucking disappear
And drown my demons in a bathtub filled with tears (Mirabel sees demons around her)
No matter what I try, they always seem to come back to life (she washes them away)

What if I didn't do this to my body? (She sees a ghost of Camilo and runs to it)
What if I quit and then you don't want me? (She barely touches him but pulls her hand away)
The dinner conversation no one talks about
Don't know how much longer I can keep this down

Beauty is a knife
I've been holding by the blade
Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything
It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive
They're all like
Did you change your hair?
Did you lose a little weight?
You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great
I hate that I always look my best
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside