Angels like him

first day in highschool

Diana's Pov:
It was my first day in high school, of course I was nervous, && well more then nervous I was scared, like literally scared.
It so happened that I even cried the night before, no I'm not a cry baby but yes I'm an emotional freak, might be just the same thing be shushhh okay?

Walking into highschool was terrifying, everyone was taller, prettier && that just made my self-esteem lower, I felt like crying.
I went with my stepdad to school on the first day...
He's not a bad person but he doesn't take bullshit that's for sure

I don't even know what my mother saw in him to be honest...
My biological dad left me around 6 years ago and since then i haven't seen him, I ain't that close to my mom though and I live with my granny

Complicated right?
My granny isn't that much of a bad person but after my grandfather's death which was 4 years ago, she changed...
Sometimes I feel like she doesn't love me as much as she did before...

She's my mothers mother, I haven't seen my biological father's mother since I was like 4, we stay in diffrent provinces so it's sort of understandable I guess

Anyways>>>>
I went into my new school, seeing some of my primary school friends made me happy, but greeting them was chaos
They insulted me, making me feel so small, it hurts, it hurts alot, I felt like crying

But I guess I'm strong, I am! Or maybe I'm just not
I'm a cry baby and alot hurts me easily, I guess i just give a bit too much love when I shouldn't.

I held my breathe in and just carried on smiling, acting like everything's ok, it was definitely a thing I do all the time since I'm just not the fighting type...

Soon enough we were going into the school hall to get allocated to our classes, my stepdad had to leave me on my own now, there was this really strict teacher that legit swore the parents saying that we should be independent and they should leave us on our own

Not even words could explain how Damn scared I was...
It was like I had no hand to hold (even though though I wasn't holding my stepdads hand lol)
I was alone, I felt alone

Until I met 1 of my primary scholl friends named Silendile, she's sweet, very sweet to be honest
She held my hand and I felt like I was finally safe
Until we got allocated in different classes, I just kept my head down and kept following my form teacher, I didn't even check where I was going

Until I got to my form class, there was this super pretty Indian girl whom I really wanted to befriend, I'm very shy so I didn't really take the idea into befriending her so soon
But break was about to come and I decided I had to as I was going to be alone if I'm unable to find Silendile

I went to her, I spoke to her and she told me her name is Yasmin, it was going all good until I asked to hang out with her in break
She held my hand and let go, and ran to her friends and there I was again, lost, almost in tears aswell

I pulled myself together and finally started looking for someone I might know, and there was Shannon, one of my friends elder sister
She's a nice person
I asked if I could stick around with her till break ends, she said yes!

Soon enough break was over...
and oh shit!
I forgot where my class was since I was looking down while walking to class, I really hoped she would help me find my class :(