Angels like him

is it too late to fix this?

Varco's Pov:
It's been weeks and I guess a month or 2 since Diana and I are together, things are going great I guess...
We having a few ups and downs but I'm pretty sure we'll get through it
After all we're the power couple! and I've told her this aswell

I know it's quite a childish term but Diana is like the most powerful and strongest woman in my eyes, she goes through alot with her family and I'm trying my best to be there for her and help her overcome everything
But sometimes she just pushes me away, she doesn't like opening up to me and I seriously hate that

We're both the same I guess, I let her in a little from time to time
But I'm also scared that one day something bad might just happen to us and she'll leave and forget me just the way she did with the rest
I mean I'm nothing special am I?
To her I might be but how would I ever know how she really feels about me

It's scary... and it hurts me just thinking about it
I love this girl so much to the point where I sometimes don't even trust myself around her
I don't like seeing her hurt! It pierces a part of my heart
she... she just keeps alot to herself and that's a problem, we've started fighting over things small as this and it gets annoying sometimes

She has huge anger issues aswell, and the biggest problem is she bottles everything inside and one day it all just explodes and I don't even know from where to start fixing stuff from...
She is quite insecure about me aswell, even more insecure then me at points and this is something I've never expected

I've always been the nerdish insecure type not her! I don't know why she just gets so insecure about me
It's like she doesn't trust me at times...
and I swear I don't even think of any other girls
(the tiktok ones and actresses excluded)
I don't know how to explain this to her, I really dont...

Diana's Pov:
Varco tries fixing stuff most of the time and he makes an effort and that's exactly what I absolutely love about him, thats what makes him different
He has never given up on me and he actually gives his best for the relationship

These are the things that fuckin scare the shid outta me :(
That one day I'm gonna wake up and his "good morning beautiful" message just won't be there, that we'll go days without speaking and with time he'll forget me </3
He'll forget everything we have, everything we built together

I hate controlling him and making him feel like what he does isn't enough, but at points I just dont know what to do and when I do something about it, I always end up being the bad one, he told me "we're a power couple" and we'll get through whatever problems come upon us and fuck what the world thinks about us

I take everything he says seriously, wait I don't.
My fuckin heart does!
It's like when if we fight the first thing that comes to my mind is that he's trying and he loves me
But then again, it still hurts thinking about it since he's... he's so perfect anyone would want him

He wants me and only me and I know this, but there's better out there...
I really wanna work my fuckin ass off to make this boy happy but I'm a disappointment, not only when it comes to him but everyone says I'm a disappointment,  I always fuck up the best things in life

My granny hates me now and she's tired of me, my mom wants to keep a distance from me since she thinks I'm a curse and now both my aunties are just being distant aswell
and now I can't fuckin lose Varco aswell just because of my stupidity and childish behaviour, because of my fuckin insecurities? 

I feel like I'm already losing him...
The fighting is getting a daily thing, and my insecurities are getting bigger because I'm starting to feel like he's already found someone better, and thinking about it and thinking that I might just lose him breaks my heart into a million fuckin pieces

Fuck! Is it too late to fix stuff?