Angels like him

her happiness is mines

Diana's Pov:
It's been a week now since Varco and I have had the break up and...
I've tried... I've tried everything I could think of to try fixing things with Varco but its just not working...
I apologised, I made promises to not break, I promised I won't get insecure
I tried explaining things but he just wouldn't listen

He shut me out.
For the first time he's just not there with me, I can feel myself breaking down
There hasn't been a night since our break up that I haven't cried myself to sleep, my anger issues are coming back and I can't seem to control myself anymore

I've began swearing everyone at home, I've been doing bad in school aswell, I can't eat nor can I sleep
I know this is stupid and just because of one boy I'm breaking down
It's immature to let my self-respect and stability crash just because of a boy
But I... I can't seem to control anything anymore

No matter what I fuckin do everything reminds me of Varco
My other male friends could just ask me to take a picture with them and I'll release all my anger on them because of my memories with Varco
I was literally freezing in school yesterday because I never brought my jacket and no one wanted to lend me theirs

It broke my entire soul down just thinking about how much Varco cared about me when he lent me his jacket
Urghhh I can't fuckin get this boy out of my mind!

Next week we're having turns to write the final exams for term 3 and I'm gonna see Varco since we attending on the same days
We've planned to hangout together for a while till he goes to write, I really hope this goes well.

*a week later
Well today is the day that Varco and I meet, he's coming in the second period so I decided to bunk my first period just incase he comes a little earlier
I've decided to wait on the main school grounds for him

Varco's Pov:
Today is the day Diana and I planned to hangout
She was sitting on the main grounds all alone probably waiting for me, she gives me all her attention and I'm not gonna lie sometimes that makes me happy

I broke up with her and hurt her, I just couldn't handle her completely I guess and we just weren't compatible
But I guess if I ever see her giving someone the same love and attention as I get, my heart might just hurt a bit

I've gotten quite used to her and she does make me happy, her laughter still fills my life with happiness, but maybe I just wasn't destined to get to hear it always, maybe we weren't meant to be

I can be harsh on her alot, but I really want the best for her and I still wanna see her become the strongest version of herself, just without me...
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We greeted each other and hugged too, we spoke for a while until she started begging to take pics for me but it was already time for me too go write my paper so I had to make real quick, we didn't get to take the pics...

But something else happened...
She...she brought one of her bra bands to tie on my wrist
it's a tiktok trend that every girlfriend ties a bra band onto her boyfriends wrist
I don't know what we are... but I'm happy that she hasn't left my side and we atleast got alot more good memories then the bad

I jokingly told her this morning that I want the bra band and I never imagined she'd actually give it to me

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She tied it to my wrist and I had to rush to write my paper as I was already late, she followed me, like a lil chipmunk lmfaoo
She's so cute, especially when she smiles

Seeing her happy makes me happy.