Meant to be

chapter 9

"Am just here cause I might have forgotten my wallet here and I went to class but then remembered I didn't have launch money, cause you know, I lost my wallet here" he said.... "But why aren't you guys at class" he asked, " well it's none of your business , we can go and even skip class when we want" replied Jake, " oh I thought you was a nice boyfriend helping her in some nice decisions but look at you making her skip class" ...the he walked in and saw me on the couch " I ain't making her do bad things" Jake looks so angry, then Lucas took a glass of water and started drinking ..."it's just cause Creda is on her period and.." Lucas chocked and couldn't stop coughing , shit I hope he won't say anything " but she wasn't last night " he said and he froze , "wait how did you know" Jake gave us both a suspicious look , " I was asking you guys lol, I mean she wasn't sick last night so I was just asking... I better search for my wallet now " Lucas said and came towards me, Jake excused and went to the bathroom, " what are you doing here" I asked , " I came to give you a pill, remember we didn't use protection, but if you are on your period well then you won't need it I guess" , "what no , I was lying bout that , am not actually on my period am just tired and can't really walk normal" " he gave me a look" ... " I mean just cause it was my first time, and not cause you are so good at it or something" ...he raised his eyebrows " am not saying you ain't good at it but .. uhh just give me the pill now" I said and he laughed and he gave me and handed me a glass of water, z Same glass he was drinking of ,so I looked at him, " O come on you ain't gonna make a big deal out of it you had morethan my lips last night he said but then we heard Jake going down so I took the pill immediately and hand him back the glass then he whispered "am sorry I left last night, it was just cause I didn't know you wanted me to stay or not" ..." Well I kind of did" I whispered back.... " Uuu then meet ya tonight?" He winked,.." I guess " I replied then Jake came , " so you found it?" " Found what" , Lucas said ... Oh God this boy is so dumb " yeah he did , it was behind the sofa ".... Oh yeah my keys I found them"... Wait what keys , we both have him a look,
" ops , I meant my wallet" he said and walked out ....

"I think this boy is.." "dumb?" I asked , " yeah" we both laughed , well Lucas was a hot , Genius, even dumb and got lotta good thinks too I guess , and am liking him..
But is it even possible to like two people at the same time???

Jake doesn't actually deserve to be cheated on too, cause he really is a move guy and he's really taking a really good care of me, so how can I just betray him,I just did tho ,I really did betrayed him so bad, buy he's still here taking care of me , and about Lucas I actually don't know him that much but still I do feel like he's a nice guy, it's weird that I wanna have them both , I woke from my thoughts by Jake snapping his fingers infront of my face " Get back here, where did you go" he said and laughed, I was lost in this two worlds I saud to my self, " Creda babe , are you good, is there anything you want to tell me" he said putting his hands on my face , then he came closer to and kissed me on my forehead, God he really was so sweet " I cheated on you with Lucas" my mind really be wanting to say it out loud, but still I don't wanna rush I really wanna know with who I should be with , who will treat ke better, who will love me better, who is so good at bed, should I fuck Jake so I can know ...no no I won't ever do this fuck this thought , I feel like am Turing into a whore ...God help me please , but then suddenly he kissed me, o God hid lips are so soft but even if I kissed him back I was feeling nothing at all, no butterflies no wanting more,just nothing, the door suddenly unlocked and we stopped kissing , it was mom ,God I forgot my mom will even come , as she get it and saw as she was so confused ," wait what is going on?, Don't you two have class? , And why are you guys so close and even wearing a blanket together , is this a date or something?, And Creda why do you look like you just had.. umm well whatever you won't do that" I know what she was about to say and yep I had it mom I replied in my mind, Jake stood and was kind of nervous ," it's just cause Creda I'd sick and I was staying with her and we were just watching movie and having snacks nothing more" his voice was shaking , " what what happened sweety , do you wanna go to hospital" she said and touched my forehead, " no temperature" what happened dear " she's just on the time of the month"
" No she .." I gave her a look and she stopped " ow yeah sweety ok then you need to take a rest and you are a nice friend to" then she look at all the snacks then " maybe you ain't just a friend hmm" mom said " no no am just her friend " he really was shaking , " I wasn't born last night guys, and it's okay don't worry am fun, I can understand " then she laughed .... Jake laughed too but he really was scared, " I will be back later Creda and Creda's mom, I hope you will be better" he said and took his back and walked but bumped his leg on yhe table and me and mom burst out laughing then he acted like it didn't hurt the went out, after he was out mom looked at me " what happened sweety why did you lie bout being on your period ,and what happened , cause I know there's gonna be a big reason behind you missing class"...
My mom is so understanding and chill and I didn't have any friends so I really need to tell her but not everything just that am confused bout my feelings, but then as I put the blanket off and was bout to tell her, the cartoon of the pill fall and she saw it, " shit"
I froze I didn't even picked it up, then she picked it up " hmm you really had sex then, that was why he was acting weird?, But wait he was saying you are on your period and you stopped me from saying anything, so who's fooling who and what's going on?" " Uhhhh" I breath out, " ok mom listen to me very well, you know Jake and I have been friends for some years and I actually have been crushing on him but then Madeline betrayed me and tried to take him away from me in a really bad way, then I met a new guy at school after hiding myself for a weak in home, but then this boy was the only one who was kind of standing with me while everyone was bullying me, we just met but he was with me, the the truth came out and Jake wanted to be with me, I have been in love with him do I said yes but then on the afternoon Lucas kisses me and I felt something so different, and I even was feeling butterflies , after I get back home me and Jake were outside then we discovered that Lucas is a new neighbor so I invited him to dinner cause Jake asked me to, but we ended up having sex" mom was shocked and her eyes were wide open and even her mouth she just couldn't believe her ear , " I just didn't cane home for a day and you had your first kiss, first boyfriend, and had sex with other guy , what is wrong with you , I mean not for the other things but bout cheating on him" ..."mom I didn't do it on purpose", " oh then you slipped then your close tore and suddenly ur sat on a dick then it fucked you?" " Mom please stop" I started crying ...
" Sweetie come down I was messing with you, but still, you need to choose from them" , " it's just so hard, I have been in love with Jake for lotta time and he's a nice guy, like look how he's treating me, but still there's one part of me who ain't feeling like me and Jake should be couples, and I have been feeling a weird feeling for this Lucas guy that I just met and fucked " I buried my face on my pillow
" Look sweetie, maybe the feeling you are feeling for Lucas isn't love , it might just be a pleasure, well you need to know where you think you will feel safe,loved, and with who you could ever imagine a future with, and you just met this Lucas guy, so know him more ,then as soon as you discover then be with one , but till then ,I hope you won't cheat on Jake , don't hurt him, just try to discover your feeling on some ways other than sexual things" she was right ,I really should be doing this , " tnx mom I will try my best" then I hugged her ... So I think my journey to discover my feelings will start from now