Five Stars

21

" 'nak....Come out na please, talk to mommy." Katok ko sa kanila.

Bumaba lang sila kagabi para kumain.

They keep ignoring me pa din, it is breaking my heart into pieces.

"Babies please..." Pagmamakaawa ko.

"Kuya Alf...Kuya Luis...Open the door na po please." Lara said while knocking.

"Uhm...Let's go for a walk? or what do you guys want??." Lara asked them.

After so many minutes, finally they open it already.

"Gosh, finally." I said.

Pumasok ako sa kwarto at umupo sila pareho sa kama.

"Uhm Lara, kausapin ko lang 'tong dalawa." Pagpapaalam ko kay Lara at binigay si Callie sa kaniya at bumaba sila sa hagdan.

"Galit ba kayo kay mommy?." i asked them.

They are not answering.

"Fine, i know you guys are mad. Hindi lang nasabi ng mommy na aalis na si tita Sha and tito Clark because i know na masasaktan kayo sobra." I explained.

"You guys heard it right?, Babalik po sila dito pag may time...And also tatawag naman po sila or tayo, right?." I said too.

"But mommy...It's a big different, Iba pa rin po ang nakakasama kaysa sa call." Luis said.

Malawak na ang pag-iisip nila.

"I know, pero hindi lang sa'tin naikot ang mundo ng tito and tita. Mayroon din silang buhay na iniwan doon sa pilipinas." Pagpapaliwanag ko.

"Doon din naman po tayo nakatira diba?." Alfonso asked me.

"R-right mom?." He asked again.

"y-yeah..." I answered.

"Then why we are here?, Dahil may work si daddy?. We can live there naman kahit nasa work ang daddy right?. Like this, we are living here without him." Alfonso said.

I didn't expect this, Hindi ko inakalang masasabi niya na ang mga gano'ng bagay.

Nalalayo ang loob nila kay Greggy dahil sa'kin.

"Why do we need to move here mom?...I want to go back in philippines. you are always saying na busy si daddy sa work, can't he just call or even a text nalang po kahit saglit?." Alfonso's sobbing.

"Mommy...Please, i don't want to be here anymore." Luis is sobbing too.

"N-no...Don't say that Kuya Alfonso, Kuya Luis...Masaya naman tayo dito diba?, Just like before right?. Nandito naman kami ni tita Lara---"

"I--i just can't understand mom...Do we really need to move just not to disturb daddy?, gano'n na po ba kami kaistorbo sa kaniya?." Alfonso asking me.

I hug them both so tight, sobrang nahihirapan at nasasaktan na'ko sa nangyayari sa amin.

This ain't right.

They are crying on my shoulder, This is too painful for a mother to see her childrens crying hurt.

"We--We are not happy family anymore." Sabi pa ni Luis.

"Shh, No baby..." Pagpapatahan ko sa kanila.

I'd do my best to comfort them as their mom ofcourse.

There is no other way anymore, I need to make a decision for us.

...

"Nasaan 'yung dalawa?." Ate on videocall.

"Upstairs, Nagtatampo pa din. They don't want to go on school. I answered.

"Tsk,tsk. I told you na kasi e, Umuwi na rin kasi sana kayo." Sabi ni ate.

"I-it's not that easy." I replied while holding callie.

"kung hindi madali sa'yo, paano pa sa mga anak mo?. Hindi naman pwedeng sila ang magaadjust sayo palagi...Isa pa hahayaan mo nalang ba na dyaan na talaga sila lumaki?.." Her words hurt me a lot.

"No, that's not what i--"

"Ang akin lang...'wag mo ipagkait ang buhay na gusto nila." She cuts me off.

The moment of silence after niyang sabihin ang mga bagay na'yon..

"Tawagin mo, kakausapin ko." Sabi ni ate sa call.

Iniwan kong naka-call ang laptop at umakyat ako sa taas.

"Kuya Alf, Kuya Luis...Tita Imee is calling." I said while knocking gently.

I was shocked, ang bilis lang buksan ang pinto.

Pero hindi nila ako pinansin, pag-bukas nila dire-diretso silang bumaba kaya nahuli ako.

Pag-baba namin nasa call kaagad silang dalawa.

I sit down in Lara's beside so i can hear them.

"Tita." Malungkot na boses ng dalawa.

"Ay ang mga pamangkin ko!, Sobrang miss na ng tita 'yan e. Mga binata na oh." Pagba-baby ni ate sa kanila.

"Ang gwapo-gwapo oh, 'wag na kayong malungkot okay??." Ate said on call.

"Tita, Daddy is not there ba?." Alfonso asked her.

Hindi rin nakasagot si ate kaagad.

"N-no Kuya Ferdie e." Sagot ni ate sa kaniya.

"Tita help us to find him." I suddenly looked at them when i heard that.

Sorry...I wasn't enough.

"H-huh?, Try to ask your mommy first." Pinasa na naman sa'kin ni ate.

"Tita please...We really missed him, tita isama niyo na po kami there in philippines." Alfonso said too.

Luis was watching them lang silently but i can see the pain in his eyes.

"Uhm kasi---."

"Hi boys!." Boses ni kuya.

"E?, doon ka nga bonget!. We're having a meeting here!." Makulit na sabi ni ate.

"Right boys?." Pang-aasar niya.

"Right tita." and they laugh.

I miss it.

"Hey no!, You guys don't miss ba?." Kuya asked them.

"Ofcourse!, we missed you too tito." Luis said.

"Ohh, see Manang???." Pagyayabang ni kuya.

"Che!, Inaagawan mo na naman ako nh moment e." Sabi ni ate kay Kuya.

"Well, I am their favorite kasi." Kuya's replied.

They are having a bonding that i wish we have too, but i am so happy because they are here to do the things my kids are looking for.

"Favorite, Mukha mo!." Ate said.

After a long hour na magkausap sila medyo naibsan naman ang lungkot nila, thanks to ate.

Every time they look for their daddy i don't really know what to answer.

Shall i tell the truth?, That their daddy cheated so we had to stay away?.

Ofcourse no, Ayokong masira sila daddy nila. At mas ayokong magalit sila sa nagawa ng daddy nila.

Okay na 'ko, okay na sa'kin sila galit.

Ayokong magkikita ulit sila ng daddy nila pero mag-kagalit.

I'll do my best to make them understand this all.

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