Jasmine | Obsessive Pjm x Fr✓

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I

Isn't it funny how casually she gave him my place?
How casually he sits on our bench in the garden.
How casually he eats at our favourite restaurant.
How casually he went on paint dates with you like we went.

He takes her to Operas,
Where she falls asleep.
Sure operas are lovely,
But Meline loves dance shows more.

He scold her that how she doesn't even put and effort on the relationship,
And he claims that he noticed her long ago.

As if.

My insides died every second.
When I saw her smile cause of him.
When I saw her cry cause of him.
I'm turning insane.

The monster inside me was dying when she was here,
But now that she gives the positives to someone else,
He is coming back.

Talking to me more often,
Telling me how pathetic of me to get left by her,
How much I deserve to be alone.

I didn't wanted to hurt anyone before it eats me up.

So I tried the only thing I could do.
And that was,

To get away from Meline.

I avoided her texts, all about delric.
I stopped visiting her cafe every morning.
Went to dance studio alone.
Cooked for myself.
Watched movies alone.

Planted plants alone.
Ate ramen alone
Played video games alone
Watched reality shows alone.

A month went by of me avoiding Meline at the best of my ability.
I was falling back into darkness,
My blues were returning.

I felt empty without her.

I thought she would never notice my step back,
But she did.

II

She visited my home cause I stopped visiting hers.
She gave me bunch of cookies and jasmines and I admired them like always.

I made her coffee, sat on the couch,
Far away from her.
She moved closer,
I said I was cold and walked up to the heater chair.

Disappointment filled her face
But vanished soon
An idea clicked her mind
She clapped her hands.

"Jimin. We don't hangout much nowadays, let's go out to eat sushi tomorrow?"

She don't know how much I'm dying to do those.

"I don't have time I'll be busy." I casually replied keeping on a straight face.
I glanced at her, and her expression broke my heart.

Disappointment. Hurt. Confusion.

What had happened over this months that her Jimin didn't had time for her?

"Busy? With what? You are never busy." She asked, batting her eyelashes, calming her heart pace down, not even wanting to hear something that will hurt her.

"I'm gonna meet someone." Was the only lie I could think off.
"Who is it?"
"Sophia."

Wait who the fuck is Sophia and why did I lie about meeting this sophia.

"Sophia? Is she your girlfriend? Why didn't you tell me!?"
"No, she's not my girlfriend. She's actually my best friend."

Fuckfuckfuck.

Her face fell, her eyes wide, an expression of pure  hurt filled her face. I know what she is thinking, that her Jimin, her home, her best friend abondened her.

Tears streamed down her face, she looked away. Curled her small body like a ball and just sat there, silently crying.

I tried to walk away, to be a hardcore man and ignore her waterfalls.
But it was hard, it was hard seeing her cry cause of me.

"You piece of pathetic shit see!
You made her cry! 'I will slaughter anyone who makes her cry.' great now go kill yourself."

He's right. I made her cry.

Just keep your act on Jimin, walk away and ignore her.

It's hard.

Why can't I be hardcore to her? Why does my heart can't let her go?
She sobbed harder.

God I can't take it anymore.
I ran up to her, immediately hugging her tight and pecking her forehead.

"Shh shh princess Don't cry! I was joking alright? It was just a joke! There's no Sophia-" Her red eyes looked at my face to find honesty.
"Really?"
"Yes. And we can go out tomorrow okay? Please don't cry I can't bear you crying." I rubbed her back and she smiled, burring her face deep into my neck and snuggling close to me.

That whole day I just cuddled her, and my heart ached more and more.

I can never let her go.