Betrayal&Love | Jimin FF ✓

Chapter 37

[JIMIN'S POV]

"So what do you think about this plan?" Seulgi suggests which had me grinning from ear to ear.

I couldn't wait for this plan to be coming true.

"I'm so happy that you decided to help us. I couldn't be more grateful of your help." I said as I stood up facing her.

"Oh don't be Jimin. I'm grateful that I got to know someone like Y/n and I'm glad that you told me the truth. I didn't wanted to be married to you anyway. I've had other plans, but father had something else for me." I could see hate in her eyes for her father.

"Anyways don't worry about my father. But get ready to initiate this plan, you better make my plan work, I'll not accept any mistakes." She points her index finger at me, warning me.

I couldn't be happier as her whole plan played through my mind again. I happily hugged her, thanking her for her contributions, as she irritatedly patted my back.

Just then the door opened, after which I saw Y/n looking away from us. I remembered that I and Seulgi were hugging from, and my eyes widened.

I hope she's not thinking about this in any negative way. I can't afford that.

[Y/N's POV]

They both broke the hug when they saw me.

"I-I'm sorry to disturb you both. I'll come back tomorrow morning." I muttered out as I turn around, trying to leave.

Why am I acting like this? They're engaged to eachother and it's fine to hug. Why am I-
My thoughts were interrupted by Seulgi's voice.

"No, Y/n! It's okay. I was leaving anyways." She assures which made me turn back towards them, but not look at them. "I'll leave you two now. Goodnight Jimin." She wishes. "Goodnight Y/n." She bows to me on her way out.

"Y/n-"

"I have something to ask you." I immediately said not letting him talk.

"What is it? Wait did Mark do something? Did he-" He sounded serious but I cut him off.

"Nothing related to Mark." I said and he nods.

"My family. My foster family. You did not kill them, did you?" I sighed out.

Jimin kept quiet as we both stared at eachother.

"Answer me Jimin." I demanded and breathes out looking away.

"I did not." He said.

"Why didn't you tell me that?" I questioned with a frown as he walks up to me.

"It's not relevant anymore." He said.

"Just answer me Jimin. Please." I requested and he sighed.

"Listen. That time I wanted to hurt you, because I thought that you were once again betraying me. I wasn't going to kill your family, but was going to humiliate you infront of everyone, but then the blast happened, and after seeing how hurt you were by that, I decided to not let you know." Jimin confessed and I nod looking at the ground.

"Y/n I'm sorry-" He tried to hold my hands but I refused any touch.

"You could not have … told me that in those four years we spent together?" I asked as my eyes filled with tears.

"We were living away from everyone and everything, I didn't wanted to ruin your mood by telling about all this."

"So that meant I didn't deserve to know the truth!?" I sternly asked.

"You did. But I thought that nothing would have changed even if I told you the truth. We would still be where we were and I was the one to hurt you and so I didn't wanted to bring it up too." He explained himself.

"Nothing would've changed? Seriously?" I was in disbelief that telling me this truth didn't meant anything for him.

"Y/n-" he tried getting a hold of me but I pushed his hands off me.

"Don't touch me Jimin!" I warned him.

"You seriously thought that!?" I snickered. "Jimin…I hated you. For every second I saw you, I wanted to kill you that very moment. I hated you with my every being, and having feeling that way for you, that pained me Jimin." I pressed my index finger against his chest. "The morning after we slept together, I hated myself for what I did. I hated what I was seeing infront of me. My body wherever you touched, I wanted to rip my skin out, and that hurted me." I stepped away from him a little. "The feeling of it being wrong, pained me."

"It hurted me more to see you do that, my heart pained at knowing that the person I was falling for, my once friend, was the one to kill my parents and give me that pain…intentionally! And you thought that nothing would've changed?" I looked at him with questioning eyes.

I went close to him, looked into his eyes, but eventually my eyes fall down at his torso as tears flowed down my eyes.

"I could've forgiven myself, for once. I could've forgiven you. All those times when I thought or mildly wondered that the person I love and was going spend the rest of my life with, was the one who killed my parents. I could've not felt what I felt during those times Jimin." I said out with a small smile.

"You know the pain, the guilt. You know how it feels to live with that, I could've forgiven myself and not feel anything like that, yet you chose not to let me." My head falls in his chest as I sobbed.

"Y/n…" he breathes out as he took me in his embrace. My hands were loosely hanging on the sides of my body as I cried out, while his one hand slowly patted on my back and the other stroked through my hair.

He would always say that making me cry would be the most painful thing for him to watch. The biggest suffering he could get. And I wanted him to suffer tonight. I wanted him to feel pain for lying to me.

One must say that's it a just a small lie, to keep me happy. But with the truth, I could've accepted the reality and moved on. I could've spent a more happier time with Jimin, with no thoughts of guilt like loving the murderer of my parents. I could've freely loved him with my whole self.

It is a big deal for me.

My body felt more weak as I fall onto my knees. Jimin held me by his body, trying his best to calm me down.

"I wanted to give you my love, w-wholly. And that is what could've been c-changed Jimin." I uttered out between my sobs.

Jimin sits down completely on the floor, then placing me on his lap. I snuggled my face in the crook of his neck, hiding my face as I cried. I could feel his eyes getting wet against my shoulder.

Cry more you little liar. You've made me cry and suffer alot because of this.

"Forgive me Y/n." He said.

I controlled my cries a little, trying to hear him.

"I c-can't change those years anymore. But I'll make sure to not hurt you like this anymore. Please stop crying Y/n."

"H-how can you not hurt me, when y-you could never forgive me for what I did? No matter how many times I asked for forgiveness and you may have said yes, but did you actually forgive me in your heart?" I placed my hand on his heart. "Did you forgive your own mistakes? Because t-to love you, I needed to forgive myself first, as I never could do that completely, I always felt something was missing, no matter how much I told myself that I l-loved you."

"I love you Y/n." He said and I scoffed.

"Wish that was true Jimin. I wish that was true." I said and got up.

I left the office room and ran towards my bedroom. While I was still trying to calm my emotions down, I heard a knock on my door, I thought it to be Jimin, so I was ready to lash out on him.
To my surprise it was Terra, looking worriedly at me. As soon as I saw her, I couldn't hold in my tears anymore and I cried out more.

"Terra…"

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An emotional chapter. I think it was okay. Not the best I can do, but okay..
Hope you enjoyed your time reading .