False Dawn

Stories Untold

Hi everyone.

So it's been a minute. Sorry that I up and left. I did say I would come back, or tell you for certain this story wasn't being finished. This is my long overdue attempt to live up to that. So this site is pretty broken these days huh? I don't know if this will even reach anyone, and it's gonna be messy and unsatisfying, but I thought it best to put a full stop on this endeavour.

Firstly thanks so much to everyone who read my silly little story. I loved writing it while I did. I was young, mentally ill but not treated, queer but still figuring out what that meant to me, and in the middle of some really complex life stuff.

When I first stopped writing this, I was in the middle of moving across the country. I told myself when I got settled I would pick the story back up again. Unfortunately, the move was disastrous, so after never getting settled I had to pick up and move back home with my parents. A week later my dad died.

Suddenly my little story about anxiety, werewolves, vampires, lesbians and grief, was too real, too naive, and too difficult to look at.

I've always told myself stories in my head, but this is the only one I've ever really shared. Abandoning it always felt a little wrong, but I could not find a way back to it. Every couple of years a notification would pop up, and I would feel a bit of guilt, but I just couldn't look at it.

Now over a decade later, I'm a very different person. I always enjoyed Twilight with a laundry list of caveats, but the Twilight renaissance made me laugh and wish I had written this with more sensitivity and awareness. I re-read this little thing, cringed deeply at my mistakes, typos and some of the choices I made, but mostly I feel a deep affection for the me who wrote this, and all of you who read it.

Thank you. So much. Sorry I can't finish this for you.

What I can do is spoil the hell out of where I thought this story would go.

- After their wonderful hot spring date Leah and Harper would have dinner with a stressed out and unable to talk about it Seth. Sue would be masterfully diffusing tension.

- Leah and Seth would leave for a pack meeting, and Leah would learn that there had been scents from strange, unidentifiable intruders all around Forks and La Push.

- Pack meeting would also instantly let everyone else know about Harper. Leah hates everyone.

- Fear of the unknown threat, an ill-timed visit from Sam, and Sue walking in on the whole thing would lead to Harper finding out way too much too quickly, and needing to take some time alone... just a harmless camping trip.

- Despite Leah keeping an eye on her (from enough of a distance to give her space) Harper would wind up in an altercation with the intruders. A pair of half vampires, created by the Volturi specifically to bypass Alice's foresite and spy on the Cullens and Packs.

- Boy half vampires are venomous, so we were going to wind up with a vampirised Harper. She was gonna be real conflicted about that.

- Here things got vaguer. But I knew I wanted to end up with the half vampire children taken under the wing of the Cullens/Pack, the Volturi thoroughly thwarted, and Harper and Leah packing themselves into the green Kombi van, and driving away to explore the world.

This is the best I can give you guys. I hope there is a tiny bit of closure in that.

I wish you all kindness, comfort and whatever joy you can find in this complicated, terrible, beautiful world we all have to live in.

Love.