High school, sophomore year,
Chicago, early winter, Nine
Inch Nails Downward Spiral
tour. She entwined her bare
forearms around his torso,
under his black leather jacket,
asking, "Do you mind? I'm
freezing!" She'd left her coat
in the car, knowing otherwise
she'd roast during the show.
Her Jack O'Lantern-orange
t-shirt read, "This is my
costume" in chilling black
font. She loved Halloween
and pretty, longhaired boys.
They talked. He held cigarettes
to her chapsticked lips with
gloved fingers. They separated
once the auditorium doors opened
but reconnected after the show.
He leaned in to kiss her. She
turned her head, pressed her
lips to his ear, as though
telling him her secret: all
evidence to the contrary, she
was really rather shy and had
only ever kissed her girlfriend.
The girlfriend who she saw
at the show with someone
else, because they never
saw each other outside of
work, furtive kisses in a
beat-up truck on borrowed
rides home; she never saw
him again and later forgot
his name. It might have been
Ben. Had she possessed a
braver heart, he might've
been her first boyfriend.
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Shadows & Dust [poetry]
PoetryMost of my poetry is autobiographical. I write about living with bipolar disorder, dating, single parenting, my neo-pagan spiritual beliefs, my dreams, and sometimes popular folklore. Many of these pieces come from my self-published collections...