Two crones sat manipulating
crazy lace agate stones that
attracted one another as though
magnetic, but they weren't. After
watching them demonstrate, I
gathered some stones in my
hands. Blue flames leapt from
my palms. I was pretty impressed
with myself until I noticed the stones
were now ash. One of the crones
pierced my root chakra with long,
bony fingers and twisted til I
screamed, telling me not to
visit them anymore, that I should
just stay home and bond with
my daughter.
Am I to believe that I'm actually
all three women in this dream?
That I'm casting judgment on
myself or working in opposition
to my wiser, higher self?
Was the dream a manifestation
of fear? The urge to dim my shine
to find acceptance?
Or was it an astral visitation
warning against meddling in
the business of others? Or
worse yet a warning to stay
away from the energies that
I worry may no longer want me?
I may not yet have earned my
crone-hood, though I'm no
maiden, and I'm almost done
rearing my young one, though I
doubt the crones of my dream
would grant that I've made
progress.
They're not how I imagine
the Goddess, though I confess
my notions of divine feminine
are complicated by a conflicted
and overwrought notion of
Mother.
Still, even if my mother's
love felt at times conditional,
I now know it is untamed and
limitless as my love for my
child, in turn.
Surely, even a Mother
as complex as Goddess
would love boundlessly, even
recklessly. Unless the
punishment was tough love
for a lesson as yet unlearned?
Or is a dream in the end
simply just a dream?
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Shadows & Dust [poetry]
PoetryMost of my poetry is autobiographical. I write about living with bipolar disorder, dating, single parenting, my neo-pagan spiritual beliefs, my dreams, and sometimes popular folklore. Many of these pieces come from my self-published collections...