i am scared.
of being a bad person.
a liar.
it's easier to tell yourself that you are good,
that the mistakes you make are human
and you are trying your hardest and that's all that matters.
however,
I find that it is much easier to be bad.
to just be a bad person
is so simple.
to not care about others,
to ignore those who care about you,
because it is easier
than being faced with the fact,
that they are scared
of you.
they never know your next move.
if you'll cuddle up to them
or if you won't contact them for a month straight.
why is being selfish so easy?
i would say that I try my hardest to be good,
but I don't.
i don't try at all.
i am running on semi-consciousness.
on one half,
I am just going through the motions
the other,
I am a self-pitying
bitch.
it
hurts
so good to say that.
i am so scared
of myself.
who even am I?
YOU ARE READING
ramblings of a blurry-eyed girl
Randomi write, you read. i pretend that i will finally equate to something other than an afterthought. but really, thanks for reading my brain vomit :) please be nice lol
