Senseless [JK x Reader] ✔️

Chapter 9

Waking up to the sound of my alarm was something I wasn't used to. Today was a different day, today I had to face my demons and go to work for the first time since the accident. I used to work at home without any pressure of getting things done or waking up at a specific time. So today is a new start for many things.

I decided with Namjoon to be on the phone daily while getting ready since he has to go to work at the same time as me and we can get ready together. He'll also help me choose my outfits and don't overdo it with my appearance. After much thought, we agreed to over-waist light blue jeans with a white top, a caramel blazer, and white converse. My makeup is light and simple with natural colors and cute lipstick.

"Thank you for helping me Joonie, see you later!" I speak on the speaker and I'm about to lock my house and not forget to take my cane with me."See you later sweety. If you need anything I'm a call away. You'll rock!" I can feel Namjoon's worry in his voice. He knows me so well and I'm sure he tries his best to make me not feel that worried. For the first time in my life, I'm not feeling anxious about my work. All this stress is productive I know that. But I still can't shake bad thoughts off of my head. Will Mr. Jeon accept me working with him after finding out that I have a disability? Or will he be pissed off at me for not saying anything the whole time during our meeting? 

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"Siri, can you tell me the time? Siri's famous sound made an appearance and answers me '8 am. 'Alright, Lily, you've got this. It hasn't passed that long time since you last came here. Just remember your steps and you'll find your way to Mr. Jeon's office.' I say to myself.

After some time trying to remember the right away, I find my way to the elevators where I'm about to get in"Ohh, Miss Whitelock, be careful." The sweet and gentle voice I heard three days ago is back. "M-Mr Kim, I-I'm so sorry." I say and try to get my cane back since it slipped my hand when I crossed into him. "Here you go, do you need any help finding Mr. Jeon's office?" He asked and I shamefully agree. But why didn't he say anything about the cane?

"Here you go, Miss Whitelock. Knock the door when you want to enter and wait for Mr. Jeon to let you in." Mr. Kim says before he leaves me alone in the lion's den. I knock on the enormous door that separates me and Mr Jeon. I impatiently wait to hear his deep and husky voice and the moment I hear the 'come in' I enter. It's finally time for my new boss to know about me. It's now or never.

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After I hear the knock, I wait a few minutes to let the person I know be outside my office. Waiting for a little, won't do any harm to her. After some long seconds, I  let her enter, and when my eyes caught her hesitant and small figure I can't help but form a smirk she isn't able to see. "Good morning Miss Whitelock. I see you found your way to my office." I speak with coldness and I caught her off guard. Her posture gives it away as her as she gasps in awe. "M-Mr. J-Jeon...I- please let me explain..." She speaks in a low voice as I have gotten used to her since the first moment I saw her touching my sculptures.

"Explain what? How you never told me that you have no sight! Or the fact that you promised to create a collection of sculptures when you can't even see them in front of you?" I shout and her stare doesn't even once lift to look at me. I'm so pissed off, furious even. I knew from the start that a woman can't do any good. They are worthless pieces of shit and once again I was proven right. But there is nothing I can do to change that now. The contract is made and I can't fire her for seven freaking months.

I have to live with her irritating existence for seven months. God help me..."You are lucky you signed the contract or else you would have already been fired." I fire again and touch my back to the chair and try to relax. "I-I'm so sorry for lying to you-"

"Did I give you permission to talk?!" I question with anger and crossed my arms. "N-no, sir. You didn't" With every passing second her voice becomes even more broken and low.

"Then why do you speak?" I breathe out. "It won't happen again..." I don't say anything and just stare at her. Her body is small and she is short. Her long caramel hair fall o her shoulders and her hands are intertwined together. I can see from afar that her hands are starting to turn white probably from the anxiety and fear she feels; I grin. 

Once I'm done analyzing her, I realize I haven't once seen her eyes. Even though we met three times and all of them were in my museum, she was always looking at the floor or wearing glasses. I sit up from my seat, I can see her being agitated and this satisfies me to an exorbitant amount of times.

With slow steps, I find my way to her and lift her chin as I did some days ago. Only this time. her eyes are wide open, trying to spot me. Her try is unsuccessful as she is staring at my lips. I bit them since she can't see them and as soon as I spot her eyes everything around me freezes and the world stops.

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Once again, I find myself being in this awkward situation where my new and incensed boss is way too close to me. My heartbeat is increasing, and the world around us is like a clock that stopped working due to nonexistent batteries. I don't know how much time since I last heard a single sound from him but I start to freak out. Will he hurt me? Or is he disgusted with my eyes that are unable to see anything? Whatever the reason is, the feeling of insecurity doesn't fade away. I pissed him enough for a day. I think that's enough.

"If we are going to live these seven months working together under me, we need to set some rules. Don't you agree Miele?"