Senseless [JK x Reader] ✔️

Chapter 16

"So basically, you must quickly create a new exhibition with a series of brand-new exhibits, right?" Yoongi asked surprised by the info I gave him and stopped on his track. "Yep, I don't know if he wants to test me or my abilities but that's the toughest and most demanding task I've ever been assigned!" Both boys take my hand and we continue walking so we can finally arrive at the place I cherish the most.

"Maybe you are right or maybe he just trusts you enough to give you such a significant project as this one" Namjoon is considerate as always and tries to find a good reason for everything and everyone. But I doubt that this was Jungkook's intention, to begin with, "Maybe" I don't argue with them because then everything would automatically be even more complicated. They would start asking questions that I didn't know the answer to but most important I'm not in a position mentally or emotionally ready to answer.

We continue walking, finally arriving at my long-awaited place "Joy's" I whisper when I hear the shop's door indicates when someone enters or exists in the place. 

The boys lead the way and we all sit at a table near the window, the same one I seated with Joonie, the last time we were here. Namjoon is sitting on my left and Yoongi is on my right, while I have the window in front of me and the counter on my back. 

"What are we going to order?" Yoongi asks even though I've already made up my mind. "I think I'll go with waffles and a mint chocolate ice cream." Joonie answers while I can picture him putting his right hand on his tummy, tapping it, and showing his eagerness to eat it. "Sounds lovely Joonie, what about you Yoongi?" 

"For me, a black and a bagel with melted chocolate on top are exactly what I need right now."

"I would give your order a compliment too but black coffee ruined it all." I giggle softly and both men join me, knowing how big my aversion for black coffee and bitter things is.

"It's okay Lily...I'm fine and my black coffee will get out of your sight- Shit! Lily, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean like that." 

"Hey, hey. Yoongi relax. It's fine, no biggie seriously. I don't mind any kind of jokes and especially from you. Just stay away from dad's jokes, alright?" We all go back to laughing again like those words were never uttered but I can feel both boys more tense and stiff. I try to act like everything is fine because It was nothing and I'm not letting bad thoughts ruin my afternoon. 

The only person that doesn't care about feelings and whose words are full of venom is my cold-hearted boss. I've let him affect me enough and I'm pretty sure he knows and enjoys seeing me struggling to keep my composure or free away from his unwanted but addictive spell.

He enjoys seeing the human kind being so easily manipulated and most importantly, he enjoys seeing me slowly falling apart. It's all a game to him, a game where he creates it himself and the rules differ from person to person to fit the circumstances and based on the power the victim has. It's a game that once you start playing you can't get away from before ending it or in simple words before having him as a winner. That game has an inevitable ending where the winner is and will always be Jungkook. So no, I'm not ready to start something I know I can't finish. I'm not ready to let him win or get the satisfaction he seeks to have.

"Lily? Still here?" Yoongi asks out of nowhere and I blink several times to realize that my mind has been off for quite some time and I've no idea how much was said and I lost them all. "Ahh, y-yeah sorry, I was just thinking about a sculpture." I fastly cover up my mistake and smile briefly to make my act more believable. "That's okay Lil sis, we were just asking you if you've decided what you wanted because we are going to order." I lost a lot more things than I thought apparently. "My usual, a red velvet cake! Thank you, I wait here for you."

"Alright sweetheart, be right back!" Namjoon tells me while he roses from his seat and pats my head softly before disappearing with Yoongi to get our order.

Only when I can no longer hear their steps, do I let my head fall between my shoulders while my arms rest on the surface of the table. I was doing so well forgetting everything about Jungkook but why did I have to get back to him, without even realizing...I'm going insane. Or more like, he drives me insane. If I wasn't so desperate in need of the money for my surgery so Yoongi and my parents wouldn't work overtime so many times so they can help me, I would have already given him my resignation letter the first day I got the job.

And just like I'm lost in my thoughts...for no one other than Jungkook, I feel a big and cold hand on my head, exactly where Namjoon had it some seconds ago, I flinch and put my hand on the left hand on my heart, feeling it beating hard and fast. Cursing under my breath, I take a deep breath, ready to scold Namjoon for scaring me like that. "Jesus Namjoon, you scared me to death...god." At first, he doesn't say anything and I question his actions. Is he trying to tease me or what? 

Several seconds pass and his hand are still on my head, cursing it softly before I can process what is happening, I feel his body getting closer to me and he softly kisses my ear, making me arch my back at the sudden interaction while my whole body is full of goosebumps, I realize that this was definitely not Namjoon. 

The so well-known goosebumps I get are only caused by the only and only person in my life. The one and only Jeon Jungkook.