Each Has A Secret (Chara X Reader)

Chapter Two

~~Y/N's Pov~~

The day later was Saturday, I wore something casual and comfortable yet stylish, I already have a plan for today, I will go to visit Chara at their house, I was having breakfast with my mom as we do every Saturday, we either make french toast or waffles, today we made french toast, I finished my plate "Mom I will go to visit Chara today"

"Is he your boyfriend?" She asked

"Mom, Chara uses they/they" I corrected  "and no, they are barely a friend of mine"

"Why?, almost everyone in school likes you"

"Yeah, everyone except for them, I mean I tried to talk to them multiple times and they never show any interest" I winced, my mom smiled, I gave her a puzzled look "why are you smiling?"

"I can see why are they not interested in you" she said, she rose from her chair and started gathering the empty plates "they can see that you are faking your real self, and they probably dislike this"

"Mom you are saying that they hate me" I said raising a brow "that's not helping"

"They don't hate you, they hate the fake you" she said

"And what do you want me to do? You know I can't be myself, people won't like it, I have no other choice"

"Y/N my dear, I always tell you that you can, people will love you for who you are, Jane and Louis for example, you don't have to be perfect to be loved"

"Mom I have to, I will be nothing if I wasn't perfect"

"Y/N I understand your fee-" I cut her off "No you don't!!" I shouted slamming the table, she flinched and didn't replay, I felt guilty, she was trying to help "sorry because I raised my voice, I didn't mean to"

"It's ok" she said and sight, "I will go now...bye" I said and left the house

If I wasn't wrong, Chara's house is after two streets, it's not that far, I looked at people around me, kids playing football or with the jump rope, other teens my age were racing with their bicycles, and adults stood in the way one talking to another

They didn't look perfect, and neither I was in their eyes, however, none of them stopped in the way to make fun of me...was mom right? Do I really need to stop being fake and too nice? Should I start saying no to things I can't do? Should I stop exhausting myself every night just to impress others? But what if I changed? Won't people start talking shit about me? Won't they leave me? Won't they bully me and pour a water bucket on me when I am washing my hands? Or pull the chair away when I try to sit? Or--

my thoughts were cut off when I felt something hot and wet on my cheek, 'tears' I thought and wiped them away, I should stop thinking about this...

I almost reached their house, and I started to get nervous, why the hell did I decide to do that in the first place?! It's because I was worried about them...but still! Who says they will enjoy my visit? I mean they are maybe shy and don't want to talk to me in front of others so they will be more comfortable in their house, right? ... I hope so

I sight, I was finally in front of their house, it looked like a small house, I held my hand to knock on the door but I stopped, what if it's a bad idea? Will I regret it? Shall I back off? I dropped my hand and turned to leave, but then I stopped, what if I regret not talking to them? So I turned back but I was scared of knocking and turned to leave again, but I thought that this is not what I want, so I turned to knock, but I hesitate, I mentally screamed 'I have never been so indecisive about something' I thought