Cats and Hickeys

iv. hickeys

CHAPTER FOUR
Hickeys

HINDI ko alam kung ano ang mas mahapdi.

Ang malaman na mag-isa na naman ako pagkagising o ang gitna ko.

Lukas wasn't joking when he said I won't be able to walk after last night because the moment I tried to stand up from my bed, my knees buckled. Ngayon ay nakaluhod ako sa harap ng salamin, hubo't hubad at tila binugbog. Bumabalot ang sakit sa katawan ko kung subukan ko mang gumalaw.

I rested the back of my head against my bed as I sat on the cold tiles. No matter how good I looked with the after-sex glow, I'm fucking spent. Lukas didn't go easy on me. Slick beads of my release from last night rolled down my inner thighs and I grabbed my tissue roll to wipe myself.

Talagang may ebidensiya ang gabi naming dalawa dahil punong-puno ng marka ang katawan ko. Hickeys spread across my neck down to my chest, my poor nipples were swollen, his tight grip on my waist was imprinted on my skin, and there were bite marks on my shoulders. Some were even bruising my inner thighs. Those were easy to cover but my neck?

People would know what I was up to because these are borderline bruises! Fucking hell.

Parang hindi 'to tatablan ng make-up kahit anong pilit ko at magmumukha naman akong tanga kapag sumuot ako ng scarf o turtleneck kung saan mainit ang panahon sa Brisas. Napasapo ako sa noo.

Paika-ika akong naglakad, pinipilit na tumayo nang maayos, patungo sa banyo at ginawa ang pang-araw kong ritwal sa mukha at katawan gayong alas syete palang ng umaga. Napabuntong hininga ako nang makita muli ang katawan sa harap ng salamin.

His musky scent was even lingering on my skin. I will kill Lukas if I see him again.

After washing the sweat and other bodily fluids left from last night, I tried scrubbing the hickeys. A stupid attempt but I did it anyway expecting an impossible result. Of course, it left me disappointed and frustrated so I threw away my body sponge in the tub. I blow-dried my hair and walked out of the bathroom feeling like a new person after a wild night.

Yet the thought of dealing with marks all over my body for the next few days was slowly dawning on me. Tangina talaga.

Sa sobrang inis ay kumalam ang sikmura ko, inisip kong kailangan ko lang ng kape at pagkain para tanggapin na ganito ang katawan na iniwan ni Lukas sa 'kin because none of my past experiences was this intense. Not only he left external marks but internal as well because my center was still throbbing. And somehow, it made me feel alive and still craving.

I was hallucinating the smell of bacon as I grabbed my satin nightgown to wear. It was color pink with thin shoulder straps and covered almost nothing as it ends on the middle of my thighs.

I'm usually tan but after weeks of not going out other than the garden, my skin tone lightened up again. Mas lalo lang akong nainis dahil tumingkad ang mga marka sa katawan ko.

Tutal ay plano kong nasa bahay ako magdamag at pakisamahan ang maldito kong pusa ay hindi na 'ko sumuot ng kung ano sa ibaba ng lingerie. My girl parts deserve fresh air and Samuel needs to eat. Which was odd because I haven't heard a single scratch on my bedroom door.

Nang buksan ko ang pinto ay umawang ang labi ko sa gulat nang madatnan kung saan nanggagaling ang masarap na amoy. What the fuck?

"Those hickeys look good on you."

Lukas was leaning on the kitchen counter–crossed arms with a spatula in hand. Eggs and bacon were sizzling on the pan. He turned off the stove with a twist of his fingers, not leaving his eyes on me. He was topless, only his jeans on with a smug look on his face.