One shot- Sarah Paulson characters

Dr. Ellie Staple

I am Dr. Ellie Staple's patient. She is my therapist and I have a big crush on her... she's so caring...she held you whenever you cried after a mental breakdown and kept you in her embrace afterwards.
Even if she probably did that with all her patients,you felt special in your own way...like you were special to her.
And maybe, you were

Y/n's pov

Today I have and appointment with Dr staple. After the last time I went there she also texted me when I was home, to make sure my overthinking and suicidal thoughts didn't make me do anything that might have hurted myself.

I checked my phone as I was entering the building where her office was, and saw she texted me
Dr. Staple: ·y/n you're coming today right?·
·you shouldn't quit....the last time you did we both know where I found you·

She is referring to the time she found me in a pool of blood at my house... immediately brought me to the hospital and thankfully I ended up alive. Fortunately for her probably...the way my mother screamed at me when she came to visit me at the hospital...

Me:·yes Dr staple, I'm already here·

DR. Staple:·good, then you may enter. The door is open okey sweetheart?·
·thanks·

I look up from my phone and I open the door of her office

"There you are,close the door after you come in please.."
I do as she says and then I sit down on the couch
"So Y/n...how have you been?"
"Good!"
She looks at me shaking her head
"The truth little girl"
I swallow anxiously
"W-well...not very good...at all...but better than two weeks ago..."
She sits besides me and touches my shoulder softly and leaving her notebook on the table
"Show me.."
I gasp and look at her with teary eyes
"Show me darling..."
I lifts the sleeve of my sweater and she saw the bandages on my wrist still full of fresh blood. She slowly undo the knot of the bandage gently and takes it off, having a sad look as she sees the fresh cuts on my wrist
"You went deeper this time..." She says with a sad tone
"I-i.."
"Tell me what happened..."
I looked down
"Are they only here on the left? Or also on the right?"
I nibble on my lower lip panting softly
"Talk to me"
I shake my head as she hugs me, making me gasp in surprise as she holds me closer
"Poor girl...I'm so sorry..."
My breath starts to have a normal rythm again I rest my head on her shoulder, starting to cry softly
"Let it all out...all out.." she caresses my back drawing circles. And then she cups my face with her hands and see how puffy my eyes are and how red all my face is, due to the crying
"Oh sweetie...tell me what made you do this...who made you..."
"I-i...I had a bad...bad argue with my mother...s-she yelled at me because she says my friends don't go out with me anymore because-because of my behaviour..."
"I don't think you're the problem if they don't want to be your friends anymore...it's more like they're are the culprits for what you've told me...not you sweetie" she wipes off my tears
"Something else?"
"I- then she told me...that i- I will.never end up doing something useful, that I'm so lazy and that's why I'm this f-fat...so ...I went to look at myself in the mirror and- disgusted..by myself...I started crying...."
She gives me a sad glare
"i-i know some people have worse problems than-than me...and than this is just me being stupid...b-but I-"
I started crying once again
"No sweetie no no no...loook at me with that beautiful face of yours..."
I look up at her
"You shouldn't compare your problems to others...You matter sweetheart...you really do matter...and don't listen to you mother...she doesn't understand anything... you're the most...most beautiful girl"
She smiles at me and that smiles makes me smile too even if I'm crying
"y-you t-think so? Y-youre saying this just beca-cause I pay you..."
She shakes her head and pulls me closer to her face
"No sweetheart...I don't say this cause you pay me...if I really only cared about the money...i wouldnt have even hugged you or texted you once....no baby..."
I look into her eyes and she looks in mine
"I feel like I have to help you...I need to...I need to keep you safe...with me.... safe and...."
I keep staring at her with my teary eyes
"I think I love you"
She pulls me into a long deep kiss as she holds me closer and I take her hand in mine
"E-ellie..." I say as her lips are still against mine
We keep kissing for some time and I suddenly feel so comfortable like I have never felt. She breaks the kiss cause her lungs are needy for some air
"Y/n....I-Im sorry I shouldn't hav-"
I pull her into another kiss to shut her up
"I loved it..."
She smiles and I smile back wiping my tears away
"Thank you...i-i think I'm in love with you too...Ellie..."
"Ellie... please always call me like that....you sound so...so good while you say it.."
I nod and bite my lower lip
"Now let's...do a little medication to your cuts...I don't want you to bleed anymore"
"thanks..."
She stands up and goes by her desk and opens a drawer
"i Will always be here...with you...to help you...to protect you..."
I go to her and hug her from behind making her gasp
"I want to be with you...Ellie"
"I want to be with you too...Y/n.."

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