It started pouring rain making me smile, I love the rain, I stood in the rain for a good half hour and then I walked inside the house. I walked up to our room and saw Manik on the bed with his laptop, I slipped in the shower again and put on a different pair of pyjamas
"Would you be okay with chicken fried rice" I asked him brushing my wet hair
"Im not hungry"
"Is your headache okay"
"Ya" he replied and I didnt know what to say but I was tired
"How long are you planning on keeping this argument up" I asked
"Its not an argument nandini, you fucked up"
"Manik I am sorry but I didnt do anything wrong"
"Great then there is no point of even taking" he said
"This is it, put your fucking laptop away for a few minutes and talk to me" I said being frustrated
"No I am busy" he said and I grabbed his laptop off his lap putting it on the side
"What the heck nandini"
"I talked to harshad because so he wouldn't keep bothering navya and I however whatever he said went in one ear and out the other. For me the only person who mattered and will matter is you so who gives a shit what he said. He said whatever he wanted to but I didnt believe it even for a second so you just watching it from afar and judging me for talking to him is messed up. I tried asking what happened and instead of talking to me, you said some really fucking hurtful things but I chose to ignore it thinking you were drunk but no, you kept going at it this morning. I dont know what happened with harshad and you and hoesntly I dont give a shit. It was your past and as much as I love you and would listen and want to know about it, I will not force you like you dint force me. But that past of yours is not getting in between us at least from my side. You saw me in the meeting, you saw how I talked to him so me talking to him in a party very politely was for you becasue I didnt want to ruin your day. I was and am so fucking proud of your achievement and I am sorry for ruining the best day for you. It was my fault I get it, so I am extremely sorry" I said all in one go
he stared at me like I am psychotic, well bitch I am psychotic so its fine. I wiped my tears that managed to fall on my cheeks while I was talking
"Once you are ready to talk, ill be downstairs in the kitchen, and if you dont want to thats fine too" I said leaving the room
I gulped a glass of water adn started cooking some chicken fried rice for him and I well mainly for him becasue my appetite was lost just like my sleep. Once I was done cooking I plated the food for him and took it upstairs where he was in the same position as before
"Here you go, do you want water or maybe coke" I asked
"No" he replied and I nodded walking away
"Stay" he said and I turned back to look at him
"Stay, we have to talk" I nodded and sat infront of him
"Im sorry" he said and I looked down trying not to cry as the words he said flood back in my mind
"Its okay" I replied and he pulling me in his lap
"It is not, I am extreamly sorry for what I said last night and this morning. It was very irrational of me to say and do, I was drunk but not enough to not realize the shit I was saying. I have a lot of memories with harshad and none of them are good ones so every time I see him it brings those memories out. If it was cabir, navya or Arun with harshad I probably wouldn't have reacted like this but since it was you, my emotions and everything was intense. I love you way too much nandini and seeing you with harshad fucked me up more than it should have I guess. This is not an excuse I promise but it just didnt feel right to me. Yes I chose to utter bullshit but I promise it will never happen again and I swear every shitty word I said I did not mean it. I made you suffer becasue of my shitty past and I am so sorry for that, it will never happen again I promise. Will you please forgive me?"
"I forgive you" I said wiping my cheeks and he titled my chin up
"You dont have to, I will work hard to earn it" he said wiping my tears
"I was never upset at you for the reaction you gave, I was upset at the words you chose to express it" I said and he held my face in his hands
"I understand, it will never happen again okay I promise you. He said kissing my cheek
"Thank you" I said smiling
"Thank you for dealing with my dumbass" he said making me giggle
"I will gladly deal with your dambass for the rest of my life" a smile tugged at his lips hearing me
"I love you nandini"
"I love you more Manik"
"Lets eat, I know you didnt eat in the morning" he said adjusting me in his lap and grabbing the plate
He put on shadow hunters on the tv and started feeding me as well as himself and I lay my head on his shoulder. He kept kissing my head every few minutes.
"Don't think too much about it babe, its okay I understand it and I forgive you so no need to overthink it and feel guilty" I said kissing his cheek
"Im genuinely so sorry for yelling at you in front of everyone and disrespecting you. I am very rash when I am angry" he said
"I know babe and it is okay, I trust you and I know you seem to calm down rather fast too so it will be okay. You and I are forever Manik and no matter how many things we face or the amount of things we argue on, we are always going to be together" I said kissing his chin
"I know nandini, no matter how serious or petty arguments are, you are never leaving me and I will make sure of that" he said kissing my nose
"You got it monkey, now can we sleep" I asked
"Sleep" he questioned and I nodded
"Babe I am exhausted, I haven't slept in two days, just hold me and lay down with me, oh and dont you dare leave me in bed alone okay" I said and he chuckled
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