Poems, Oneshots & More

Tears Keep Falling

To a close friend

Tears keep falling
Never once stopping

So please tell me why
I never felt this way
Not once any day

I couldn't even move
Nor feel anything
I couldn't process a single little thing

Numbness was there
Stopping me from any feeling
But still I couldn't bare

We couldn't speak no more
Something you made sure
Something you decided to keep

A sacrifice that it was
A sacrifice that you made

But still I never blame you
It's not your fault
None at all for you to do
This and just leave

Cause I still remember everything
It was dire time for me

Getting my life together what it was
Who could I even trust

How could it be
Who was she
That face in the mirror that reflected off me

I still remember everything
But tears keep coming
I don't know why

Cause tears keep coming
Tears keep crying

I want to stay strong but
despite that very thing
I can't seem to find it in myself to at all
Cause tears keep coming

Still I keep remembering
And promising and never forgetting

How we first met and interact
The first person to respond you said in fact

Yet tears keep coming

No matter what I do
The ending always the same

Cause tears keep coming

The unhealthy habits of waiting
For your response and only stalling
My priorities, but You're more important

But tears keep coming
I only keep crying
Never stop just listening in silence

Cause no matter what I do
I wish once more to see you
How about 3 years afters

Unless these tears keep falling
Never ever stopping
And I only keep crying

Can't focus on myself
Can't keep dreaming
Can't be singing
Can't start writing
Not even drawing

Cause you're not there
You away from here

The connection gone
Cause you were my supporter
My one and closest friend

These shallow thoughts ending in vain
Never leaving the keyboard
Never telling a soul
What I'm feeling a tearful stain

Cuz tears keep falling
Always still crying

Cause I can't move on
Not even singing a song

Cause all I want is to talk again
Just like we did and used to do, my friend
Let me tell you everything as I send
A message and hope this is not the end

So never forget this stainful tears
That never stop crying
And the tears will always be falling
Never stop but falling for you
And I'll always be there for you
So never forget as these tears keep crying

Cuz they won't stop falling
And I hate this feeling
My emotions, it's stealing
I can't seem to began caring

Not again.

Cause these tears keep on falling
But I claim it's raining
Down my face but I'm just lying
Cause I won't stop crying
And I don't know why I'm even trying
I should just be stopping
Cause these tears just keep falling
Cause these tears won't stop crying...

//
If you read my Wattpad Rants of Boredom: Things that Irk Me book then you also know what's kinda going on, but this is more to it.

I just feel hurt unstable and so miserable to the point I just really want therapy and can't stop crying.

And I blame myself for not being able to help someone at all or do anything to continue to keep this going because maybe I was just too much with sending messages.

I don't feel like I can't do anything I really enjoy anymore-- or for awhile because it hurts too much and just everything is so overwhelming.

Maybe I could do scenes that are sadder but that's it, I don't feel like I can and I don't have any motivation or inspiration because in the end does it really matter?

It's stupid and pointless.

And I can't do this for me anymore because I can't and if it's not for me who else would care.

No one because no one really cares about anything I do.

Also if you ever see this and you know who you are, I'm sorry for everything that I did.  I blame myself and I hope your decision has helped you with everything going on and that you will be/are better now.  I feel kinda ruined now, but I don't blame you at all.

I blame myself because all I get close to always end up moving, leaving; something they can't help.

And maybe someday we'll meet again...