So, today I was outside with two of my best friends. And one of them tould me that his dad made a rude comment about me. And at first I thought it wouldn't be as bad. WELL I WAS FUCKING WRONG! SO APPRANTLY HIS DAD SAID (Also for context, there was a school festival two days ago where his dad saw me) "Das Mädchen mit dem du geredet hast, die dicke, war das *my dead name*?"
And now in English to make this easier.
"That girl that you talked to, the fat one, was that *my dead name*?" AND THAT ON ITS FUCKING OWN IS ALREADY FUCKING BAD ENOUGH! BUT IT GETS WORSE!! "Die wiegt doch bestimmt mehr als 100kg!"
And english again
"She propably weighs more the 100kg/220,00 lb!" AND I WANTED TO CRY SO BADLY IN THAT MOMENT! AH FUCKING GROWN PERSON, THAT IS A FUCKING PARENT, JUST FUCKING BODYSHAMED ME SO HARD THAT I WANTED TO GO BACK TO STUFF I DID HALF A YEAR AGO! (I hope you all know what is ment here). I HATE ALL OF THIS! BUT I CANT TELL ANYONE BECAUSE EVEN MY FUCKING PARENTS CALLED ME FAT (mostly my dad but still not ok!). SO ILL JUST HAVE TO LIVE WITH THIS LIVING IN MY BRAIN! I ALREADY HAVE A FUCKING NEGATIVE SELF ESTEM BUT THIS JUST KILLED IT!
