Cruel summer❤️❤️❤️

5

Lily's POV-
"Mom it wasn't that big of a deal" Steven argued "Really Steven getting picked up by the Police for underage drinking isn't a big deal?" My head was pounding and me and Conrad sat on the bench together leaning on each others body's for support She looked so mad Steven sniffed the air around us "Wait were you guys smoking?" As soon as Steven said that I realized that he was right there was a lingering stench of weed in the house "Stop yelling Susannah's asleep on the couch"
"What?! Your the one who's yelling"

"laurel I swear I didn't drink I was the DD for tonight" Jeremiah was quick to defend Steven seeing how pissed off laurel was at them all "Do you guys know how serious this is this night could've gone a lot differently if your parents weren't your parents"

"What are you even wearing" she pointed at belly's outfit "It's a dress mom Belly's a big girl now so stop treating her like she's a little kid cause like it or not she's growing up" god she made me so mad sometimes it's like she's failed to notice how much Becky has changed and grown over the last year

"Don't even get me started on you" she said pointing to me sprawled across the bench "look at you back to your old self again what are you gonna start doing next am I gonna find you bleeding out on my bathroom floor the next time I see you or worse—"

"DONT YOU FUCKING DARE FINISH THAT SENTENCE!!!" I could feel my lungs start closing in on me I can't believe she just fucking said that to me while the whole family was present it was happening they were all gonna treat me differently now I could already see that they were looking at me holy shit what am I gonna do tears streamed down my face "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME MOM!!!" After all she saw me go through she had the nerve to tell the whole family about it "i— I can't believe you" I was only able to choke out those words in a whisper that was hardly even audible I got off the bench suddenly and stormed off "FUCK YOU!!!" I sobbed as loud as I could before running up the stairs and slamming the door to my room

Time jump

Conrad's POV-

All of a sudden my world started crashing a million thoughts running through my head how could she not have told me something like this

This whole time I've been thinking of myself when I really should've been thinking of her who knows how long this had been going on and I wasn't even there to help her how could I have been so stupid

"M—m—om" Steven said barely able to get his words out without having tears threatening to fall from his eyes I looked around the room and noticed that everyone had started to cry laurel just stood there in shock I assumed and backed up from what where she was and started to cry "I can-t believe I just did that" she whispered

"Mom what are you talking about" belly choked out between sobs "I couldn't tell you guys she didn't want any of you to know"
"So it's true?" Steven was crying with his mouth open in shock
"SO YOUR TELLING ME THAT MY TWIN SISTER JUST SO HAPPENED TO BE GOING THROUGH ALL THAT AND WHAT?YOU DIDN'T BOTHER TO TELL ME OR BELLY!!!" He was yelling now crying as he spoke to her " I couldn't she didn't want you guys to treat her differently"
"And yet you just told all of us right now" belly said sounding angry "you really fucked up this time didn't you mom"Steven stormed off grabbing belly's hand and went upstairs me and Jeremiah following them how could this be going on with out anyone noticing not even her brother or sister seemed to have noticed

I ran up the stairs and I locked myself up into my room and started pacing back and forth in my bedroom should I go check on her or should I just let her have her space

In that moment I realized that I couldn't lose her not ever she was the only person that I knew I could trust with my life and a person I loved more than life itself I wasn't gonna lose her not now not ever she was the air that I breathed in withought her I would suffocate I love her with everything I have we've spent our whole lives together and I loved her before I even knew what the word love really meant she was my Sun my moon and all the other planets and starts in this universe she was my whole life

Fuck fuck fuck I ruined everything haven't I she probably doesn't think I like her at all I've tried my best to hide my feelings for her for so many years that I've pushed her away on several occasions I should've just let her in

God I'm such an idiot what the hell is wrong with me I can't I just can't I can't believe I've ruined my chances with the girl I love and with my moms cancer I just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry till I couldn't cry anymore Lily was the one for me all along and I've spent so much wasted time not telling her

There was a knocking at the door a couple minutes later and I had sat on my bed bawling my eyes out but before I could tell the person to go away I hear a small voice that I recognized

"Connie?" She sniffled while saying my name I could tell she was crying by the way her voice seems so quite and yesterday still so comforting

I ran to my door and I saw Lily her eyes were red and puffy and full of sadness I immediately grabbed her and pulled her into my room before closing the door I dragged her to the bed and didn't let go of her as we sat there holding onto each other like it was the last thing we would ever do

We stayed like that for a long time until I finally said something "Lils" I sniffled "yeah" her voice sounded so weak and small it broke my heart to see her like that

"Can I see?" She looked deep into my eyes before slightly nodding her hand showing me her hands while looking away
I grabbed her wrist gently and I examined her hand it was hard to see the many scars unless you looked closely and knew what you were looking for it broke my heart to look at them but the fact that it was hard for me to find them because they had faded with time gave me some relief knowing that these had to be pretty old

"When?" I asked quietly not knowing if she would give me and answer

"Well umm you know how my dad left my mom well he basically cheated on her I wasn't that surprised cause they always fought constantly usually never got along at home I mean I can't say I was surprised but I was still so angry and I blamed myself for so long that it just all was too much so I picked up a few bad habits but my mom found me one time and well I got help and I'm better now but I didn't tell you guys because I didn't want you guys too think of me differently so I told my mom not to tell you guys only Susannah knows cause I just couldn't do that to you guys" she broke at the last couple of words and I  held her

"Thank you" she spoke "For what?" I asked "For listening I really needed that" she laughed at her words

"Lily look at me" I stopped hugging her and I looked into her eyes holding her face with both my hands "Lily you don't know how much you mean to me you are the most extraordinary person I have ever met you are so pretty and god I can hardly even keep myself together when I hear your laugh your hair your beautiful eyes your voice holy fuck Lily everything about you is so perfect and I love every single thing about you and I want to spend every waking moment of the rest of my life being with you"

She sat there frozen in her spot

Fuck I knew it she doesn't like me back why did I say that I just told her I loved her I mean of course how could a person not love her

"Connie" she whispered her face was so close to mine our noses were inches away from touching "Yeah?"

  "I-I love you too"