𝙥𝙨𝙮𝙘𝙝𝙤 𝙠𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙧

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I sighed, waking up aching. I was still tied down, so even i did want to get up, I couldn't. He really did mean what he said. This was his world, not mine. Even if i was my own mind. He was in control.

Not me.

"Will you not try to escape? Peter asked. I look up, nodding eagerly, pretty much begging for him to untie me. Peter goes to my level, then says, "Beg for me to untie me." What the hell? This was super weird.

But i was desperate, so i would beg even. "Please untie me, I begged, like he ordered. He smirks. "What?" "Please, untie me! Please! I begged. He untied me, I was free. But I didn't move. How could I?

He was well, the one in power.

I accepted that, but I decided i would play along.  Maybe even pretend to submit to him. I hated the idea of submitting to him but if I needed to survive then so be it.

"Will you listen to me now?"

I quickly nodded. "Good girl, He whispers, sending chills down my spine. The way he said those words made me feel intimidated.

It made me feel very small and I was of average height I think. I didn't know and didn't really care. "This will be easy, He whispers but probably let me hear him on purpose.

Peter was always one step ahead of me or two honestly. I watched as he left and frowned. I was never getting out of here was I? I didn't want to think negatively but I might have to. I don't have any choices. I groaned. Does he think I'm intelligent enough? Probably so. I mean, why else would he tie me down like this?

His words echo in my mind, so he is obviously there, no physically, but in my mind. Why are you in my mind? I thought.

So I know what you're planning.

"Shit, I mumbled. He definitely outsmarted me there, like usual. Peter was smarter than me in every way i could think of. I mean, I'm decently smart. Like, I get Bs and Cs in school. So i honestly could only get out of here by death.

better fate than this.

Are you sure about that? The world's cruel yet beautiful at the same time. You've got so much to live for, Y/n. I won't let you die on me.

I chuckled, as if he had any control over my fate and even then he wasn't that powerful. You may try, I thought. But I'm going to die. Someday or Now. And you can't control that.

Watch me, 010.

There were a few times he called me Y/N then mostly 010, that number didn't have any meaning to me anymore. I have a name, and I use it. I consider 010 being degrading, removing me of my identity, Papa's intentions from the very beginning when we were in the lab.

Papa never really cared about his "children", only himself. Did he even have a family of his own? Probably not. Who would ever love him? He was psychotic, 001, I sort of understood his actions. However, i do not excuse his actions.

I jus really needed to get out of here, even if i kill myself. I sighed, I would escape I just needed to be a step ahead of him, blocking my mind from him. Might take some time but i've done it before. once, only once, though.

I groaned, holding back tears. I was pretty much doomed from the beginning. This is his world, not mine. which means he controls everything. Including me, well he wishes he could. Control is everything for 001.

I figured it out quickly.

I cross my arms, feeling him behind me. "Hmm, blocking your mind huh? He whispers in my ear. I nodded. He adds," Give up now, Y/n." I chuckle, shaking my head. I still have my powers here. I think.

"Stubborn, He mumbled. "Mhm, I replied." Now you could do this the easy way and let me free. Or be difficult and I'll kill you." 001 chuckled. "You don't have the stomach to kill me, 010." "Try me, I hissed.

Suddenly, he's gone. for now. I think he is underestimating me, well, sure, he's right. I'm not evil. Murder is wrong. This stupid lab. He made it this way on purpose. I sighed, close on giving up. I'm being so dumb by doing nothing.

When I could be doing something. I'm relieved Max is fine, though. I begin crying and while I feel weak when I do so, what else can I do than express my emotions?

Death is really the only way to get out of here. Well, the way Peter can't stop me. Since he's everywhere else.

His obsession with me keeps growing and even if I do somehow manage to escape alive he's going to find me again one way or another.

I let down everyone, El, Will, Joyce, hopper. I know he's alive and at least he'll get a chance. Not me.

I continue sobbing until I fell asleep unintentionally. Is there even time here? I don't think so, it feels like hell. Anywhere with 001 is hell. Especially since he isn't letting me go. I look around, is there anything I could use?

I sigh in annoyance, realizing there was nothing. Fuck. When he calls me Y/N, I know he is serious about something or is pissed off. I remember years ago when he exposed my first name. When he only ever used my name, was when he first was sent to the upside down.

So I know, he is angry. 

"I know how I will escape, I smirked, loudly. Now he is in front of me. "How so, 010? 001 smiles, innocently if you squint though, there's deeper meaning. "Why would I tell you? I reply, mockingly, before his hand wrapped around my throat.

"Because I know this place well. If I knew you weren't lying, I would've found you. I'm never letting you go through the only exit, y/n. so i would give up by now."