Only His

Chapter Forty-Nine

Kazimir

I stared at her face not wanting to believe she was serious. My heart thundered in my chest and in my ears, I could feel the blood rushing around my body and my body humming with hotness.

"Why are you saying no?"

"Because you're asking me for marriage, kids, a lifetime! You want to spend your life with me Kazimir that's... that's not possible," she said, quietly.

"Why isn't it possible?"

"I haven't thought that far into the future and matter of fact, you're probably thinking with your dick."

"I'm not, I'm thinking with my heart. Imani, I'm in love with you, L'vista I love you," I said, desperately.

I need my words to go through her head. I love her, I was madly in love with her and it had taken me this long to know it. I have known for so long, but I never said anything until now. Sitting across from her and watching her laugh made me realize just how in love with her I was. Her eyes glossed over once more.

"I told you I don't know how to love, I can give you sex, advice, even being one the people helping you to-."

"Neither do I, but tell me you don't feel it between us. You don't feel the love between us."

"I-."

She pressed her lips against each other and her tears fell out. Her face in twisted agony as she got off the table and began fixing her dress. I hated seeing her cry, but she didn't believe she could love, when she was wrong. We were in love with each other the whole time. She wouldn't have said yes, if she wasn't.

"What if I betray you?"

"What if I cheat? What if I fall in love with someone else? What if I fa-."

"Those are possibilities, they might not happen and if they do then we deal with them when it happens."

"I have a daughter, that I didn't know about until a week ago. You can't possibly want to take care of a child that isn't even yours," she rambled.

"I do want to take care of her, she's your daughter, so she's my daughter as well. What's important to you is important to me."

Her shoulders fell and so did her tears. My heart was aching as she softly cried. She shakes her head, but I hated that she was shaking her head. She backed away from me and she turned towards her chair.

"I can't do this."

I tried to reach out to her, but moved away from me. She grabbed for her purse and held it against her. She didn't look at me, her hair fell in her face shielding her face from me.

"I can't do this Kazimir," she whispered.

She began walking away from me, but I wouldn't let her. She can't fucking walk away from me, she can't leave me like this. I felt a weird sensation rise through my body, I was becoming hotter and my hands were hands were shaking.

"Imani, baby please, don't walk away from me," I plead.

Yet she doesn't stop walking. I could catch up to her easily, but my breathing became harder and the hotness in body was unbearable like pins of hotness. I breathed harder as I watched her get to elevator and she began pressing the button aggressively.

"Imani, please, I'm sorry. Don't do this."

I reached her and I held her hand in mine. She kept her head turned and never looked at me. I pulled at my tie as I wanted her to say something, then the elevator doors opened and she walked into the elevator, her hand slipping away from mine.