Only His

Chapter Fifty-Nine

Imani

Kazimir getting shot had completely drained my energy. I haven't slept much in the last few days of him being in acoma. I was so scared he wouldn't wake up and when did, his first thought was demand he could hold me. I was hoping it was a coping mechansim and him not being serious.

I was waiting on Anastasia to come with food, because Kaz was going on about how he was hungry and how he wasn't going to eat hospital food. I have been barely eating as I have had no appetite. I was sitting outside in one of the chairs in the waiting room, I just needed a moment for myself.

I rubbed my eyes, they were sore from tiredness and stress. My back ached from staying at Kazimir's side the whole time. My whole body felt strained and right now I just wanted to soak in a hot bath right now.

"Here."

I lowered my hand and looked up at Mikhail. He had a water bottle and a candy bar in his hand. I take it from him knowing I wouldn't be able to stomach it. He sat down next to me.

"You haven't eaten anything."

"Not now, please," I mumble.

"You're forgetting you're pregnant, you have to eat."

"I will eat, with Kazimir later okay? When Ana comes."

I turn my head away, putting the stuff on the other chair. Fatigue nauseated and swirled through my body. I had a shitty headache, nausea and loss of appetite. I was just feeling so shit at this very moment. I blanked out Mikhail and closed my eyes.

I will try to eat later when Anastasia comes with food. Mikhail had left, leaving me alone and giving me space. I kept eyes close as I wanted to throw up and yet I had nothing to vomit. I gagged and I covered my mouth. I got up from the seat and dragged my feet towards the direction of the bathroom. I was sluggish and dizzy, my world spun and I just felt so sick.

I went into the bathroom locking the door and I went over to the bathroom. I hunched over the toilet retching and gagging, yet nothing happened. Just the taste of acid on the back of my tongue. I hated this, my body convulsed and I felt it trying to push up imaginary food.

I hated this, why does it have to be this bad the second time around. My eyes fill with tears as I just wanted this feeling to go away. My head was felt so heavy and I was just in agony. I forced myself up and I flushed the toilet. I went over to the sink and I washed my face off.

I kept splashing the water on my face wanting the sickness to disappear. It still lingered, but I felt the tiniest bit better. I unlocked the bathroom and I headed back to Kazimir's room. If I leave for too long he will start calling out my name. I stumbled into the room and the waft of food hits me.

Usually the scent of food puts me off and increases my nausea, but it made my stomach gurgle. Oh so now you two now wanna eat. I tried to act normal as I went in. Alexei, Megan and Anastsaia were sitting on the couch. I felt so drained that I don't know if I can keep up appearances right now.

"Heyy girl.. Are you okay?"

"I'm fine," I mumbled.

"L'vitsa, what's wrong?"

"N-nothing," I respond.

I rub my forehead as I swayed to the side a bit. I held onto the arm of the couch as I lowerwed myself down. I laid back and I tried to take deep breaths, before I started crying from all pregnancy and Kaz being hurt, Juan and Azura, just everything was too much.

"You don't look good," Ana says.

"Go get the doctor!" Kaz orders.

"No, no I-I I'm fine," I stammer.