10 things i hate about you ✁ fushiguro

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———— ONE, I HATE THE FACT THAT YOU MADE ME LOVE YOU.

oh wow we're at the final diary entry

i honestly liked this whole diary thing. i'll have to thank nobara for suggesting it.

alright, reason number one.

i hate the fact that i loved him.

actually, let's rewind.

i don't hate hate the fact that i loved him. at one point in time, i truly did feel strongly for him, and he was everything to me. my solace, my sun, my safe place, my serenity.

my happiness.

my everything.

i guess i'm adult enough now to admit that he didn't deserve to be my everything. i tried to push aside the feeling that maybe at some point, he did deserve all my love. i stopped feeling sorry for myself. i stopped victimizing myself.

he did me wrong.

i know that now.

so, megumi fushiguro, i hate you.

i hate that i fell so madly, deeply, irrevocably in love with you.

but at the same time, i hate the way i don't hate you.

not even close.

not even a little bit.

not even at all.

goodbye, megumi fushiguro.

f̶r̶o̶m̶

s̶i̶n̶c̶e̶r̶e̶l̶y̶ ̶

b̶e̶s̶t̶ ̶r̶e̶g̶a̶r̶d̶s̶

y̶o̶u̶r̶s̶ ̶t̶r̶u̶l̶y̶ ̶

love,

[y/n] [l/n].

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