Just A Little Longer

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Why are you still here?

We haven't cared in years.

I'm tired.

We're tired.

Can we just stop?

Living.

It's exhausting.

I know.

We can't stop.

I just want to sleep.

I don't know if I can do this.

I want to cry.

Hold me tight in your embrace
Fix my shallow beating heart
Lover, let me hide my face
So it doesn't fall apart

You hurt yourself, my heart beats slow
Cleaning blood from off your skin
The moment that I leave I know
You'll just do it once again

We're dying.

Mentally.

You know that right?

I don't know how much longer we can go.

We love her.

We're going to spend the rest of our life with her.

We promised.

We don't break our promises.

We don't lie.

Not to her.

I'm willing to be patient for something like this.

Something so important.

Something we so desperately want.

I'm willing to wait and plan and proceed carefully.

We can't have everything right away.

But she seems to be desperately clawing her way to the deep end.

When we've just gotten into the pool.

Just a little longer.

I know it's painful.

We just need her to trust us.

To trust that we know what we're doing.

If we just take a little more time,

It will help tremendously down the line.

Just a little longer.

Don't you think I want you??

More than anything!

I want to say, "Fuck the world!"

Grab you and run.

I want to.

I want to I want to I want to I want to.

I want you.

But I refuse to let emotions I'm not used to having control my actions.

If I do, I'll mess something up.

There are important tools in my life I can use to help us,

But I need them on my side.

Which requires just a little more time.

A tool is useless if it doesn't work for you.

I can make them work.

Just a little longer.

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