won't turn back

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fully titled:
forever is a maybe (but i like our chances, baby)

fully titled:forever is a maybe (but i like our chances, baby)

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summary.

Things are, admittedly, much simpler before Miyuki Kazuya gets traded to the Mariners for a six-year deal. After all, it's not a mere trade. The catch here is that Sawamura Eijun, already there for one year, is locked in on a seven-year deal with them and nearly got them to the Division Series. So, the question becomes, what else can the Mariners do if they have Eijun's high school catcher with them?

Go above and beyond. But you know this. You anticipated this.

What you didn't anticipate was the complications that would come with his arrival.

After all, you were just a mere ballgirl.










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#01. HUNGRY HEART , BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN
everybody's got a hungry heart
lay down your money and you play your part

#02. FRIENDS* , BISHOP BRIGGS
#03. LOVE OF MINE , IMAGINE DRAGONS
#04. ILOVEYOU , BETWEEN FRIENDS
#05. WEST COAST LOVE , EMOTIONAL ORANGES
#06. COMING HOME , LEON BRIDGES
#07. KISS GOODNIGHT , IDKHOW
#08. BLINK , THE MOSS
but did i find you lonely, babe?
did you show me how small i am?

#08. LOVE IS A GAME , ADELE
all your expectations of my love are impossible
surely you know that i'm not easy to hold

#09. FEVER DREAM , MXMTOON
#10. TANGERINE , TIM ATLAS
#11. BORN TIRED , JHENÉ AIKO
#12. TALK , HOZIER
i'd be the last shred of truth
in the lost myth of true love
i'd be the sweet feeling of release
mankind now dreams of

#13. CIGARETTE , OFFONOFF
#14. ALONE , MISO
#15. OPEN UP , UMI
#16. THE AUTHOR , LUZ
#17. I GUESS I'M IN LOVE , CLINTON KANE
#18. LAST TIME , ADAM MELCHOR
it's just i never have enough of you
feed me any lie
just tell me this won't be the last time

#19. HIS HANDS , BLEGH
he feels handcrafted just for you
but he's a little bit too far away
and you can't, you can't

#20. LOVER, PLEASE STAY , NOTHING BUT THIEVES
#21. HALLEY'S COMET , BILLIE EILISH
#22. WON'T TURN BACK , JACOB BANKS
yeah, forever is a maybe
but i like our chances, baby

#23. SIDE EFFECTS , JOSEPH
#24. AMERICA , MABES
and i thought no one could see me
and i was walking for a thousand miles
out of every state and city
you were the one i was waiting to find








notice!
this takes place after daiya, in the future.

content warning!
descriptions of minor violence, panic attacks, and some trauma.

dedication!
the daiya fandom Wink

notes!
oooh i know i said i was probably done with daiya but... miyuki just got me :|

what's funny is i did get an idea for chris while writing. then i got distracted with something else. so. that probably won't happen. but it was a pretty good idea! alas

so this was originally supposed to be short. or i thought it would be. it did not end up short at all. the total word count is 228k and there are 42 chapters total. another thing is that i am finished writing and everything is edited and ready to post, so, there should be no issues as far as that.

i should also say this fic was written in mind with a reader of color (as i am a poc) but it's never explicit. i just wanted to give a heads up to any readers who aren't white. i know i've often started reading something with a reader under the assumption that the author writes them as white (and i am often proved correct when words like 'blushed' or 'turning red' are used). i know descriptions of hair have also presented a problem (for me, i have curly hair that people generally can't run their fingers through, so! also thickness and such) which is why i've done my absolute best to avoid saying anything regarding those feature descriptions.

that said, i've given the reader a backstory, so to speak, and established family dynamics (without naming names, however, as i know that can also ruin the experience). i've pulled from my experiences in my family as part of potential justifications for why i did what i did. for example, reader's mother is an american football fan. my decidedly brown latine parents love football! especially my dad LOL. of course it won't fit everyone but just know everything was written with readers of color in mind, so hopefully it's not too much a leap to relate to them.

it's not perfect and there's probably areas i can improve and other areas that are impossible to be helped without becoming specific but i tried! so i hope you guys enjoy!




































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started (draft): 10/16/22
finished: 2/17/23

published: 2/27/23
completed:

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