Baby Maybank

18. 2 months old

Tuesday, May 17th, 2023

JJ's pov

The pouges apparently think I'm doing better there glad that I'm not staying in bed all day anymore and that I'm eating something, even though it's not much, there just glad I'm eating something, but if they knew that I take pills everyday to get high they wouldn't be so happy, they would be pissed. Their still mad that I'm not taking of River, but I can't, he's better off without me.

Oh and he's 2 months old today, crazy how he's so big already, he's starting to smile and make little noises at the pouges, its really cute, but I won't tell them that.

"What are you guys doing" I say to Kie and Sarah who are hanging decorations as I walk out of the bedroom

"Were hanging decorations for River, he's 2 months today" Kie says standing on the counter taping up a happy birthday banner

"Yeah he's 2 months not 1, why does he need a birthday party" I say making a sandwich

"Because me and Sarah bought him more clothes because he's getting to big to fit in his newborn clothes, so we thought since it's basically a present, why not decorate, this place needs more decoration anyway" Kie says getting down from the counter

"You could open the clothes we got for him, since he is your son if you don't John B's going to do it" Sarah says

"No I'm good count me out of your little birthday party" I say walking to the bedroom

I'm not gonna lie it hurt when Kie said he was growing out of his newborn clothes, he's getting so big and I hate that I'm missing it but he's better with John B, that way he actually has a mom, Sarah's good with him

I walk out of the bedroom a few hours later to get a drink and all the pouges are sitting in the living room, with River laying on his back on the floor while John B's opening the clothes Kie and Sarah got

"What are you guys looking at, just getting a drink" I say walking to fridge and getting a beer

"There's some pop in there to" John B says as I'm walking away

"Shut up John B it's not like you don't drink" I say mad turning around to look at him

"I'm actually trying to quit since I'm the one taking care of your kid" he says mad

"Guys..." Kie says quietly

"Did I ask you to take care him cause I don't think so take him to the adoption place I don't care!" I yell at him interrupting her which scares River and he starts crying

"Good going JJ" John B says going to pick River up but Kie stops him and picks River up

"How is it my fault he's crying you were yelling to" I say pissed off

"JJ stop, just stop ok" Kie says bouncing River to make him stop crying

Then River looks at me and stops crying and smiles, the best he can anyway, I try not to smile back, I don't want the pouges to know I think it's cute

"JJ he's smiling at you means he likes you" Kie says

"Nah he's probably just happy you're holding him" I say

"No I really think he's smiling at you JJ" Kie says walking to me

"Kie" I say harshly backing up

"Why do you act like your scared of him, just hold him" shes says walking to me

"Kie seriously stop" I say walking around and going outside

Kie's pov

"I have an idea to get him to take care him" I say to the pouges sitting down

"Yeah sure Kie, he's never going to" John B says

"Just listen to me" I say. " I think we should leave him alone with River, then when he cries he'd have to take care of him" I say

"I don't think that's a good idea Kie, what if he just leaves him here alone" John B says

"I mean couldn't we lock the door somehow" Pope says

"Yeah we could I guess, but I still don't think it's a good idea" John B says

"I mean Kies right he hates when he cries, so why would he just let him sit and cry" Sarah says

"Thanks you, look John B I know you're worried about it, but I know JJ loves him and I know you all see it to, so I feel that he would take care of him if no one was around or at least try to take care of him" I say

"I agree with Kie, I see it to everytime River cries or smiles I can see it in JJ's face that he wants to smile back and just hold him, but he just doesn't do it and I think it's because he thinks he'll fuck up being his dad" Sarah says

"And if your still uncomfortable about we can stay close to the chateau, we can do it tomorrow you need a break anyway, it will be good if you and Sarah go on a date, me and Pope will stay here and watch JJ" I say to John B

"Fine" he says giving in." But if something bad happens I'm blaming it on you guys" he says

"That's fine, I promise this will work" I say

I hope so